Down Time.
It's only February. Last Friday was the 100 Days to Graduation party for seniors, but I was at First Light's big concert and eating French toast afterward. So there's only 92 days until graduation now, but that seems both extremely far off and strangely near. 3 months, to the day.
I'm already exhausted. I feel like I've been working extremely hard on everything, and it's still not enough. Planchon expressed disgust at our Senior Sem class, saying that we (the class, not my group specifically) hadn't done anything, that we knew we needed some sort of quantitative analysis. I pretty much felt like crying.
That was Thursday. I felt so extraordinarily discouraged and tired that I basically took off Thursday night from doing any work, as well as yesterday morning (and of course, evening). And now it's Saturday, and I need to start getting stuff in gear, but I'm sick now. Sore throat, exhaustion.
And to think that one week ago, I was elated. Prof. Birnbaum wrote me a letter of recommendation, which you can read here, and I felt really pleased with all the effort I've put forth over the years. Like finally it was all going to pay off. And I guess it still will. Being yelled at is discouraging though.
I guess I'm off to do a little gentle reading and/or a nap.
