[11:10am] This weekend sucked so much, except for Friday: that was okay. Friday was attempting to go to Baskin Robbins, discovering that it didn't exist, and settling for Sonic, then watching Rufus W sing on TV. But then everything went downhill. So here's my disclaimer for the week (until Saturday at 3:30)-- If I'm crabby or short-tempered or snappy or petty or argumentative or resigned or antisocial or anything else out of sorts, it's because of stress. I'm sure everything will go back to the way it was when we come back after Christmas. I just want to go home. And this "Chocolate Sensations" tastes bad: bitter. Like me!!

December 5 2003
[11:24am] I'm almost late to Calculus, but this is worth it.
 

 

December 4 2003
[4:06pm] This is the perfect time to crow a little bit about how much I love my friends here. Y'all are wonderful. Maybe a few minutes after I wrote the last post, Laura came in and offered to wallow in misery with me, and later I skipped Spanish out of pure hatred for Wednesdays and Matt and I hovered about oblivion while listening to Rufus Wainwright commentary on his new CD "Want One". And if you don't have that yet.. WHY DON'T YOU HAVE THAT??? Sigh. Anyway. And Carolyn just wouldn't quit making me laugh.. We were writing songs for our new band, which I think is called like the Glorious Grunts or something. For real. Our songs are so clever. I'm afraid to tell you readers the details, for you shall think them so funny and clever that you might STEAL them!! I'll tell you one: picture this. The song name is "Things That Are Not Shiny". It begins with intensely awesome guitar setup, and at the very climax of the musical moment, Carolyn shrieks "BLING-BLING!!!----oh, crap." And the guitar does a bow-wow thing and that's it. AHAHHAHAHAHA!!! We win. We certainly had a lot of fun when Laura, Matt, Carolyn, and I went out to Chili's for some food fun: "OH FUZZY!!!" and grabbing Carolyn's neck. And then later, while I was crawling about in the depths of despair and writing my paper, Drew brought me my themes and kept me company a little bit. It was good times. My friends = buenos amigos.

December 3 2003
[10:48am] Maybe some days you just wake up and you're like, "This is going to be a terrible day. I can just feel it." Well, today is just like that. It's raining and I have half the 2500-word paper (that's due tomorow) done. I didn't do any Calculus or Spanish yesterday because the paper was so demanding. AND IT'S ONLY HALF DONE!! *takes a huge breath in... out..* Okay, chill. It may be a crappy day, but Friday, which is only 2 days away, that will be okay. Hey! Winny got a blog! One day, when I have some time, I will redesign this thing and link everybody. It's been 6 months. *hangs head in shame* Time to get ready for class n stuff.

December 2 2003
[5:12pm] Someday I will attempt to explain how amazing my friends here are. But not today. Today you get two visual stimuli: a result of my slacking, not working as I should be. I stole that thing from Kelly to make a pretty picture, and then you can see my 2nd semester schedule, a real beaut (beauty minus the Y.)
 

 
 

December 1 2003
[1:32pm] So Wednesday I woke up bright and early, after relatively (suddenly I can't remember how to spell that) few hours of sleep, wandered to Walmart in my slightly crippled car, and made them fix my tire. I ate McDonalds and read some Spanish homework, attempted Calc but gave up and watched Texas Justice or whatever that lame show is.. some girl was arguing with her ex because he paid for half her boob job and he wanted her to "pay him back" for the other half, or some nonsense. So by noon, my car was fixed and I was home by 4:15. I was pretty exhausted, and putting things in chronological order is pretty hard for me, so I'll summarize further by saying this: I slept quite a bit, saw Joey some (it took two tries for us to see School of Rock, but it was worth it!!! "the movie's almost over.. get on outta here.. it's time for those cleaning guys to get the sticky stuff up off the floor"), watched a LOT of TV (which is uncharacteristic of me), saw Kristeny Keeb a little on Saturday, and then drove back yesterday. When I got back, Matt and Drew and I hit the Burger King, and they picked up Zac(h/k) and Deborah and we watched Jurassic Park. An exchange of people occurred--Drew and Zach and Matt left, but Carolyn and Laura arrived and we went to Sonic because we were all hungry AGAIN--then Matt came back, and we watched Sliding Doors, and that was that. I survived Calculus this morning and I got my test back. 79%!!!! That's WAY better than I thought I did. Okay. Now for the Search common sessions, which are always fun because they involve ALL my friends sitting right next to me.

[10:38am] Pretty weird to think it's December. Anyway, so Thanksgiving break. Everyone who is cool is leaving summaries of theirs, so I'm just conforming to that. Tuesday I got all excited about coming home and fidgeted my way through my stupid Spanish presentation (of which I will tell you much more later) and went out to my car and drove away and on mile marker 10 in Arkansas BOOOOMMM!!! I had another blowout. ARGH! So I had a 2-second freakout and then 12-hour anger. But it was okay. An Arkansas highway patrol policeman came by and started changing my tire (I held his hat); he said, "Never tell anyone that the Arkansas police aren't nice, because look at what I'm doing for ya! And it always has to happen on a cold day, right?" And so I told him how it had happened before, on a hot day, 90 degrees, and he said "90 degrees? That's nuthin! I just got back from Iraq, try 136!" Oh. Whatev. Kudos to Officer Williford (which is awesome because it's the name of a dorm on campus). So then the Motorist Assist showed up and finished, and I went back to campus. Then Laura and Carolyn and I went to the Lair and met Deborah and her friend, and we ate and then we left. Then Laura went to the airport and Carolyn and I went to "Runaway Jury", which rocked a lot. John Cusack makes almost anything better. Ugh, hang on. More later. Reviewing my last two posts reveals that I basically wrote the same thing twice. Argh!!

November 25 2003
[7:32pm] How I longed all day today to just be home. And I'm not. I hate Arkansas with the passion of a thousand flaming suns, especially because it keeps beating my car up. Stop breaking my tires, AR!! So tonight Carolyn and I watch "Runaway Jury" at 10:10 and tomorrow I dash to Walmart (somewhere) to get my tire fixed, and then I drive home, whee!! Then I'll see Joey and Kristen and my family and things will be swell. Sweller than they are now. But it's okay, for John Cusack awaits.

November 23 2003
[10:36pm] Hmm. Carolyn is playing "Cell Block Tango" off of the Chicago soundtrack and I was reading RyFo's blog, and it's making me miss winterguard so much. I'm gonna have to figure out sometime to work out, because no winterguard + eating = not thin anymore. The problem is that this semester was the semester from you-know-where and it afforded me no time to do anything. Honestly, if there were a guard here, I don't know if I would be on it; I'm not sure how I would manage; all the homework + guard = no life otherwise. At least now, if I slack a little, I can have a social life (even if it is a weak one.) I can't wait for the next 42 hours to be over. I just want to go home. I miss my Joey so much, and Kristen will be coming home too, so I'm overjoyed and ultra-expectant. Plus my family is always excellent -- and I can't wait for turkey and mashed potatoes. God, I'm so hungry. Sigh: I ate at like 5:30 and I'm STARVING again. It's exhausting being me. My weekend was good, though; let me see if I can remember. I've had problems with putting things in chronological order recently. Friday for Carolyn and me was to be known as Debacle Day: part one was the bank, for her, and part two was Walgreens, for me. Debacles. Then we rushed back and Drew and Zach and Carolyn and I went to Chick-Fil-A which may be my new favorite, and then we watched LOTR and took turns French braiding everyone's hair (everyone but Zach, whose hair is too short). Then yesterday Carolyn and I slept really really late, but ate dinner with Matt and Ke and Laura, and then Matt and Laura went to do work, and Carolyn and I joined Drew and Zach again to watch Labyrinth, play pingpong and pool, and get coffee. Then Laura joined us on our run to Blockbuster to pick up Spinal Tap, which we viewed in Matt's room shortly after. Then Carolyn and I watched Bambi, ate breakfast, and went to sleep. We got up in time for dinner with Matt and Daniel with the Perfect Eyebrows and Zach and Zach's roommate, whose name I can't remember.. and Olivia and Tobias. Then we left and I did homework for a long time.. Things get a little weird on the weekends, but I'm so tired, I'll be fine after tonight's sleep. I'm exhausted. Here I go.

November 21 2003
[1:27pm] Yesterday was one of those days where no matter how hard you spin your wheels or pump your legs, you can't get anywhere. It was for me, anyway. It was like one of those dreams where you run and run but you're not going. So I think I got a C on my Calculus test, probably because I gave up on the studying, but more likely because I suck at evaluating integrals. Sigh. Calc III here I come. Today is a better day, though. I think the better day started last night with dinner: I got my mashed potatoes that I had been craving for years, because it was Thanksgiving style food and it was tasty as anything. I had as follows: turkey of course, mashed potatoes, banana, strawberry-banana yogurt, Dr. Pepper, a bun roll thing, and a slice of chocolate cake (but I gave most of it to Laura because she was looking lustily at it.) Then I sat around, not doing homework for a while, and we (DebDeb, Matt, Carolyn, Laura, me) watched MST (the alien one!! HAHAHA). Then Drew and Laura and I hit the Wendy's and sat in his car til 12:15, and then we all went back to our rooms. I sat around playing on Amazon for a while, and then went to sleep. Tha end. Oh, but Calculus today was okay.. and then lunch.. and off to Search.. and then the real fun begins: Walgreens, clean room, laundry, talk to Joey, make Drewbie a collage, and then go watch Lord of the Rings II. WHEE!

November 19 2003
[5:55pm] Have any of you ever cried in a library? A moment ago, trying to get caught up in Calculus AND study for the test tomorrow AND worry about themes and the research paper that looms impossibly large on the horizon AND Search AND Spanish nonsense that I don't even care about.. It all got far too much. So I took a step back and thought, "What will happen if I stop studying Calculus now? I didn't study for the last one and I got an 82%. Or whatever I got. I didn't study for the Search test and I got a 95%. (Never mind the 87% on the thesis paper.) I just can't make myself keep doing this. I give myself little breaks but it's never enough! I just need some real R&R time.

[1:37pm] In order to tide you over until things settle down, a visual presentation. Savor it, make it last.
 

 
 
 

[11:16am] Things are gonna be pretty crazy around here for the next couple of days--Calc test, lots o themes to write, Search, Spanish.. everything requires my attention and I just have to balance.

November 17 2003
[7:03pm] Carolyn reads an email from her dad: "I took the boys hunting and we got one duck." So cute.
 

 

[4:25pm] When I woke up on Sunday, Carolyn was like "let's go to a movie" so we (me+C+Laura+DebDeb) saw ELF. That movie made joy live deep in my soul and it made me want to eat a lot of spaghetti covered with sugary crap. "Buddy the elf, what's your favorite color?" In a few days, when I can say that sentence without laughing, I'm going to make my voicemail say that. WHEE!! (HAHA! That reminds me: Carolyn turns into a dolphin in times of great stress. It was raining and she drove through a big puddle and dolphin'd -- i.e. EEEE!! HAHAHAH!! Carolyn=The Dolphin; I=The Lotus, Matt=The Walrus, Joey=The Beautiful.) What's funny is that the ELF, who's 6'3", that's only like 5 inches taller than me. Ha! Anyway.. Search common session today, that's where I went after I ended my last post. Drew sat behind me and kicked my seat a couple times.. I gave Laura a "Lego" (really one of the dark chocolate mints that my mom sent me--THANK YOU MOM!!!--but I told the boys that it was a Lego so they wouldn't want to eat all of them.. hmm.. my logic was somewhat flawed there.. boys=eager to eat Legos.) The presentation was Athens vs. Sparta.. craziness. I can't really concentrate on much these days. One day I will finally catch up with my homework and be set and happy, but til then I will have random ADD posts like this and you'll have to be satisfied with that. Now I'm gonna go conquer some homework and write a theme WHHHHEEEE!!

[1:35pm] I've decided that while I don't even mind Calculus anymore, I mind writing the themes. Just when I think that I have everything else done, I remember a theme. ARGGH! I have 11 left, and there are only like 14 writing days left, but it's okay, I guess. I'm just tired of the one-a-day's. Thank goodness it's almost over. Just gotta keep on truckin. This weekend was excellent--Friday night Drew and Laura and I went to Java City, which was closed.. so we went to Laura's room to watch Edward Scissorhands with Olivia and Tobias and Ke.. K&T left (separately) at points during the film. Trying to sprout some romance between two of my cohorts, I'll keep you updated on that. Saturday Joey came down and of course it was raining, but I didn't care much. We watched "Honey I Shrunk the Kids" and went to this weird place on Poplar for dinner with Matt, Laura, and Carolyn--Matt was jealous because Joey sat on the hump. Matt's roommate Andy recommended the place where we ate and I had some pretty sketchy cheese sticks ("fried cheese" in tha South): the consistency of the cheese was all wrong, plus they were too small. Then we sat around my room forever and DebDeb and Olivia and Ke all came by separately, and they met Joey and everything was fabulous. I was told several times that I looked drunk, but I wasn't: I was just sooo happy that my boy was there. Then we all got ice cream, except for me, I ate Laura's sugar cookies. The next morning, Joey and I went to Perkins for breakfast and he left around 12. And I went to sleep. Then... AHH! I have to go to class. I'll tell you about Sunday later. I'll leave you with this: "Becky the Elf, what's your favorite color?"

November 14 2003
[3:04pm] Today is my 3/4 birthday and I can't get happy. I mean, yay, of course, Joey is coming tomorrow! But until then, happiness eludes me. I might've just made up that word, I feel like that constantly (like I'm making up words, words that I always knew before that they existed). I just got back from Search where Woodhull asked this girl Laura (not MY Laura, a different one) what she thought of Tyreisias (spelling is definitely off there), and this girl absolutely NEVER knows what is going on. Woodhull wouldn't leave it alone though.. but later she asked Matt something and he was like "I don't know" and that was that. She moved right along. Matt always knows the answers, I wonder what's wrong.
   Yesterday was insanity. I came back to the dorm from Daily Themes and gave myself 5 minutes to lie down on my bed before I went to Spanish but the 5 minutes turned into a trip to Sonic and then 2 hours during which I watched "As Good As It Gets". Stress made me feeble. After that I went to the library to catch up in Calc, and not understanding Calc made me have a breakdown: until I went to Java City, where Laura bought me a blueberry muffin. Then I sat there until 10:30ish, and then I went back to my room and realized that all my Calc homework was STILL due Friday, and none of it was done. So I got working, and kept working until 2:00, when I finished all that could be done, and then I went to Jenn's room to take her and Carolyn (they were "studying" for a Psych test) some Thin Mints. I stayed there til 2:45, then I took a shower and went to sleep at about 4:00. This sleeping pattern will have to change if I take Calc III at 8:00.
   The thing with Calc III is that it's only 3 hours, and supposedly it's much easier than II. But I'm still petrified. I have a meeting with my advisor/Calc II prof in 15 minutes to see whether I should take II again or III. I'm not sure which I'm rooting for: II is at the same time as I'm taking it now, MWF 11:30-12:30 and R 11:20-12:20. 4 hours. But it wouldn't be as hard since I took it this semester, too. But III is at 8:00 AM. Lordy Lordy. Calc at 8:00??? I don't know how successful I'd be. The sleeping patterns would have to change. Other classes I'm looking at: Why Hitler? (Hist 105), Intro Fiction, Economics 101, Logic, Poly Sci, Span 301, Span 302, Intro Sociology, Topics in Chem, Intro Poetry, Early Modern Philosophy. The Intro Fiction is taught by Schottenfield, who is supposed to be one of the best profs in the nation at this point, or something. So.. we'll see what we end up with.

November 11 2003
[10:37pm] Antigone says (actually, Creon says): Of successful lives, the most of them are saved by discipline. This may be true, but I and growing to resent discipline more and more. I crave relaxation and recreation. I yearn to sit around and not read academically. I had an epiphany today, though, while reading Antigone. It was something along the lines of: "I should WANT to read this. This is why I'm at college, right? To gain knowledge?" So I went about it as though I wanted to read it. And it made it far less painful and questions for Search spouted much more easily. And then I learned that Monday's cancelled common session was only postponed until Wednesday and that reading Antigone wasn't as pressing as I thought, and I pulled out all my hair and died of frustration. Oh well. No reading til after Friday. WOOOTIE WOOT! In Daily Themes, it took me closer to 3 hours to write about 2 pages double-spaced about young people in Ivory Coast, in Africa. I should care. I should. Woodhull called us Generation Y and I think that's really appropriate because I am always asking myself that these days: WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY?? It's annoying to have so much.. questioning. I will present you will some photos.
 

 
 
 

November 10 2003
[8:22pm] I really resent all this homework I have to do. Look on the bright side, though: I just wrote a theme on the Dave Sedaris essay in this week's NYer. I rock and roll.. all night.. Sweet Susie! Unfortunately, tomorrow's theme is about the Ivory Coast: WHO CARES??!?!?!?! Certainly not moi. I made a killer CD today though: it consists of Aerosmith.. oh.. I just realized that I don't want to type all that nonsense out. Sigh. I will, later, though. I gotta.. do homework!!! Curse the world!

[1:20pm] Hallelujah! Search is cancelled! Wooooot!! Umm, I had a really good weekend, got to do what I wanted, which entailed spending time with Joey and eating lots of scrambled eggs, bacon, and Thin Mints. Hmm.. maybe I'll skip Spanish today, since there's a test tomorrow and today will just be a review.. I totally have the subjunctive DOWN, baby. I think I'm gonna go lie DOWN, baby.

November 7 2003
[1:42pm] I'm just about off to Search, but I had to share these pictures with you kids, because you've been very good this week and deserve a treat.
 

   
 
 

November 6 2003
[12:37pm] I'll feel so much better--or worse, depending on how the presentation goes--in about 2.5 hours. Either way, I don't really care; I just want to have the stupid thing over and done with. I've been trying to get all my homework for the weekend done early--I'm going home this weekend, so I won't be doing it at home, probably. WARNING: THIS NEXT PART IS SOOOO BORING! Left to do: maybe write one theme, finish my notebook write-up for Calc, read Search for Monday and write questions. Of course, I still have classes and stuff. Today: 1-2:30 Daily Themes, 2:35-2:45 Calc presentation (VOMIT out of scaredness--but with much apathy), 3:00-4:00 Spanish (the homework for Monday I've already done haha!). Tomorrow: 11:20-12:20 Calculus (whose homework I've already done too!, but I still need to tweak the notebook write up, as previously mentioned), and 1:50-2:50 Search (whose reading I've already done, but will have to read for Monday and write Qs.) I'll have to write some themes over the weekend, but I don't really mind if the articles are any better than they were this week----arghhh!!! Enron + Iraq = borrring. Whatev. Back to sleep I go.

November 5 2003
[7:09pm] Oh yeah, and did I mention that everyone is going to see the Matrix tonight? Everyone but me. I hate academics. I'm going to drown my sorrows in pudding or something.

[7:04pm] Arghhh. My pi approximation thingy isn't going as well as I'd hoped.. and I present it tomorrow at 2:40, directly after Daily Themes. I feel so stupid. The only consolatory thing is that everyone is having trouble with it, but I also feel stupid because I was given a chance to write in DT about something I was interested in, and I chose something that I thought would be interesting, but.. I'm still so undecided. Why can't I do anything right? By the way, I hate the Spanish subjunctive, but at least that submits to my dominion. Anyway.. back to the subjunctive, Herotodus' histories, pi approximation / differential equations, and maybe just a little theme-writing, but probably not.

November 4 2003
[5:27pm] I have been spending my evenings in the library recently, after I discovered (thanks to Matthew) that the carrolls have internet ports. HALLELUJAH!! This is like heaven for everything: it means I can go to the library for hours on end and do my homework and remain connected to my family and friends while I do so. Also, it's good for Carolyn and I if she wants to watch TV. It's totally a blessing, and I'm quite happy. Well, relatively. I'd be a lot happier if there were less work. I'm having SO much trouble figuring out Mathematica. GRARRRRRR!! Looks like Barr and I will be spending some quality time together. Oh well. I'm taking Calc II next semester again anyway. I've pretty much decided, since I feel like I'm faking it this time through, but I'll ask Barr to see what he thinks. Plan for tonight: eat dinner with some people, and retreat to the library to write Thursday and Friday themes (I was so good, I wrote MTW's themes last night), study REALLY hard for Calculus, and then delve into the wonderful world of Herotodus. Wheeeee!

November 2 2003
[2:19pm] All in all, I'd say it was a pretty good weekend. Friday night Laura and I went to Olivia's and watched Nightmare Before Christmas and played with Olivia's 11 cats and 1 dog. Then we came back to the dorm and watched Besieged.. hmm.. a little too artsy for me. Then yesterday, I slept til roughly 1? 2? Whenever. Then Laura and I ate lunch, and Carolyn and I had a second lunch, and watched That Thing You Do until Jenn and Ryan (Jenn's Kansas friend) came for us to go downtown with them. We went to the Peabody and saw the ducks and we went to the Rendezvous and had some terrific BBQ (but terrible service). A quick wander through Tower Records, and then onward to the movie theater: we were going to see Texas Chainsaw Massacre (the 2nd time for me), but about halfway through, Carolyn leaves, and 10 minutes later, Jenn leaves. So Ryan and I leave as well, and we all go back to Jenn's room. I wore Ryan's Halloween police helmet and we laughed over the photo booth pictures we took at Tater Red's (this place on Beale). After sitting around for a while, we went to Matt's room until 2:30 am and then we just came back and went to sleep. Plans for today: whip out some themes, get my Calculus in order, NOT study for the Search test tomorrow, and talk to my Joey and my Kristen.

October 31 2003
[4:22pm] Manic depression... in my soul... Huh.. Sigh. I don't wanna go to the SAE party tonight.. I'm not used to being at Rhodes on the weekends. I just miss my home so much that I want to be there when I'm not attending classes, which I know isn't a good way to enjoy college life, but I don't care. It's MY college life and I'll do it how I want to. Some people just don't understand because they don't have the same attracting forces that pull me home. So shut up all yall. I hope Laura and Olivia invite me to Scary Movie Night @ Olivia's tonight. That's something that I think would keep my mind off of feeling sad and missing home. (I don't know why it's so bad this week. It just is.) Scary movies roooool. Laundry time, kids!! Woot! I'm gonna wash our bathroom rugs because when the maintenance guys were fixing it, they made toilet water go everywhere!! *thumbs down*

[10:31am] As if that dream weren't weird enough, the day just got weirder as we kept going. I was cracking up in Calculus because of a joke that I can't remember now, and in Daily Themes because, from Palmer, you can hear the monkeys in the zoo. They must have been really upset about something because they were really shouting at one another today. Spanish was the final class, and I couldn't stop giggling--things were just funny to me yesterday. And I found out that Keeb was okay.. yay! Then Matt and Laura and I ate with Deborah and Zach.. we all ate together, and it was fun.. Then we retired to go do our homeworks (because there was a lot of it.) While working on my homework, like 4 drunk girls piled into the shower and proceeded to sing obscenely to the tune of "Little Bunny FooFoo". I didn't actually see their costumes but I saw them in the hall later wearing only their towels, so hmm.. And while in the hall, I saw a few girls ready for the Pike Halloween festivities.. Hmm. Since when do army girls wear hotpants? Of course there was the ubiquitous naughty nurse costume.. Sigh. I guess the whole point of Halloween is dressing up as something you're not (i.e. celery).. but really. I don't want to see half-dressed girls. Perhaps I'm alone in this conclusion, but I haven't had my hot chocolate this morning, so I'm still a little woozy. WOOT! Our toilet is fixed. Time to get ready for las clases.

October 30 2003
[10:10am] Oh, Keeb. I dreamed that you were physically disfigured.. Your hands were all hairy and there was a significant piece of flesh missing off of one and in its place was a small black knob.. And you were so, so thin.. And your eyes were like coming out of your face because your skin was stretched too tight over your little skinny bones. And your legs had bruises up and down them and it was terrible. I will call you sometime today.

October 29 2003
[4:37pm] Other than that, to help Carolyn a little with her Search paper, I made up (or she made up, I can't remember), a little song with this Bible verse. Isaiah 45:5.. "I AM THE LORD and there is no other, besides me there is no god!!" When we sing it, it sound like a CNN song.

[4:12pm] This may end up being one of the more depressing weeks of my life--not the MOST depressing (Aug 21-28 managed that fairly well), mind you. I came back from St Louis on Sunday and felt very.. desperate/desolate? Desperesolate. (Sad note: making up that word made me pause so my brain could recharge.) Anyway, Laura and Matt came over last night around 11:00 so we could make a quick Wendy's run, and then we all settled in for a happy rendezvous which quickly transformed into a thought-provoking deep late-night discussion when Matt asked "Are you guys happy here?"
   Sometimes I wonder. It was discussed a bit and then when asked what he thought, Matt replied with the feeling that the teachers don't care and the students don't care, and something I share that view, but I doubt it'd be any better anywhere else. He was talking about transferring to Mizzou or Tulsa and I was just wondering if, just because it's less work, will that make it more satisfying? I'm not sure. It would certainly be easier, but we are Matt's kind of people. We get his humor and most of the time his mindset. Sometimes I want to transfer to somewhere closer to home (even though 4 hrs isn't bad at all), because I'm such a home-centric type of person, but it might be good for me to sort of be independent and distance myself a little. So we all got a little sad that Matt isn't having an all-butterflies-and-rainbows time here at Rhodes.
   And then today we go to search and discuss Ecclesiastes which previous to today, I never thought was particularly depressing until I read this: Ecc. 1:9-10, What has been is what will be, and what has been done is what will be done, there is nothing new under the sun. and Ecc. 1:18, For in much wisdom there is much vexation, and those who increase knowledge increase sorrow. (Honestly, does THAT make you wanna learn??) and Ecc. 2:11, Then I considered all that my hands had done and all the toil I had spent in doing it, and again, all was vanity and a chasing after wind, and there was nothing to be gained under the sun. Sigh. So what the general point made was, "What's the point of living?" Everyone was sad, and so was I. Blah. But I'm not gonna just.. whatever. I have stuff to live for, and people who get depressed about this.. I don't know, I'll be their friend.

October 28 2003
[10:21pm] I am bored. I did a lot of stuff today and can't make myself do any more. I wish Joey would get online so that I could talk to him, but he's probably sleeping. Kristen's at Gay Night. Carolyn's (supposed to be) writing her Search paper. Matt's at work. Laura's... somewhere. Never mind. I'm just going to make Matt a collage, since he's the only one left. Bored Inc.. and I should be doing my Calculus, but can't.

[10:50am] I love it when people just drop by unannounced to hang out. I really do. Or even if they don't come by to hang out, but I make them come in and sit down. I like it. I think I also like this.
 

[6:07pm] Joey, I miss you. In other news: my leg hurts and I got an 82% on my Calc test. Plans for tonight: try not to die of pain, write Search paper, get sleep. Plans for tomorrow: take Spanish test.. mmm, maybe that'll be it. Hope cleaning ladies don't try to kill me.

October 24 2003
[10:43am] Yesterday was the craziness that would not end. It started with a Calculus test which I felt pretty comfortable finishing first again. It's probably a B, but one can always hope for better. Then Daily Themes came and we argued about "Bowling for Columbine" for 1.5 hours, and then Spanish: and for some reason, I could not wait for Spanish to be over. I was packed up to leave a whole bunch of minutes before she was done talking. Alex laughed at my impatience (but I think he only laughed because he was a sharing participant in the impatience. I noticed his books weren't out either.) After class, I talked to my Joey a little bit and got my little dose of happiness for the day, and then we (Medium Buddy and I) went to Walgreens (must go back Monday to fetch Retin-A) and then Black Lodge to return "The Bad Seed". We rented that like a whole week ago. Oopsie. No late fees, Black Lodge. Then we came back and ate... blah blah.. Laura came over to study since people were in her room being raucous, I suppose.. then I got bored of writing themes and thinking about stuff, so I just told Matt to come over, and he did eventually. The four of us ordered a pizza and then Matt left after eating some: "Mmmm, a pile of meat." Then Laura left and we all tried to go to sleep BUT THE STUPID FIRE ALARM WENT OFF. So we were standing around outside at like 3:30 am.. I was really angry and sleepy. But there were some people who were more angry. Woah, she was a scary one indeed. She musta been hibernatin o sumthin. Then we went back inside eventually and I went right to sleep. Yay.

October 23 2003
[10:11am] Walking past to get my laundry, I noticed something on Jenn's door.
 

October 21 2003
[1:18pm] Joey and I went to Mastodon, mall, and a short visit to his house yesterday. We saw a kid bark, and a guy with dogs (*PUPPIES!!*) was really nice. The kids at the mall were.. uh.. weird.. And then Joe played songs on his guitar for me and that was so nice. "Not Enough" on an acoustic is pure beauty, as is Joe. As is "Leatherface" (as he has been named), the "little marauding burnt French Fry" guy. (-Dad) I had a doctor's appointment today and got some blood drawn -- to test if I have excessive amounts of testosterone(????).. I never feel particularly mannish but if it's positive, maybe this will explain some things: "ME NEITHA" and "SHUT UP" hahaha.. Right. Anyway. As soon as Frontpage is installed onto my laptop, I'll be driving back to Memphis and maybe working on a new layout tonight. Fingers crossed, kids.

October 20 2003
[3:33pm] Hmm. That really never stops being funny.
 

[3:15pm] Joey and I saw Texas Chainsaw Massacre.. Or Joe did, I spent a lot of the movie with my eyes closed. I have nothing else to report, except that bad dreams suck. (They interrupt perfectly good sleep.)
 

October 18 2003
[6:47pm] I'm home now, on fall break. Yesterday we (family+Joey) went to Olive Garden to celebrate Dad's birthday (which was the 11th but he was in Florida), and then Joey came over and we hung out for a little while, and then I drove him home and saved a raccoon's life on the way home. Then this morning, my mom calls to me, "Bec, you have an hour before we leave." Mmmokay. Two seconds later, "Bec, we're leaving in [what sounds like "fifteen" minutes.]" BAH? So I get up and rush around and 14 minutes later I'm ready and I go into my mom's room and she doesn't have her shoes on and I was like "Did you say 15?" No, FIFTY. BAHHHH!! Whatever. We left soon and went to FHN and saw my brother's band performance; it was awesomely awesome!! The last time I saw the show was at band camp, it was thousands of times better. Millions, billions, trillions of times better. It was .. yes. Good. But they got 4th. Which is still good, because nobody can beat Murphysboro. Nope. They're just.. indomitable. Then Joey's parents took me to lunch, which was good (both the food and the company), but I got home and didn't have my keys and no one was home to let me in, so I went over to Joey's for a while to hang out--we sat on the tree swing and looked up at the leaves. Good times, noodle salad. He made/let me wear his suspenders. :) Yay for nerdity. Then I went home when my dad got home. Later Joey and I will see a movie. Happiness Inc. ("with stock options" - thanks Mattie!)

October 16 2003
[4:25pm] Bah! I just gave my Spanish oral exam (it was like an act-it-out presentation deal that we got to write and perform in front of the class.) In mine and Katie's, we were respectively a flight attendant and a really freaked out passenger. It was fun times. I couldn't stop shaking, but people said it was funny. Eric said good job, and his was HIlarious, so.. in fact, everybody's was funny. Liah and Matt's though.. I died. They were talking about how they loved accordion music and how they could play their stomachs and noses as musical instruments.. I can't even explain it, it fills me with such joy. I only have just stopped blushing. I hate getting up in front of people to speak English, so.. Spanish.. woah. I'm okay now though. Guess what?!?!? I have an A/A- in Daily Themes. Wooooot!! Probably a B- or C in Calculus (and if that's all I can muster with hours and hours of continuous studying, sobeit.) I annihilated my Search test with a 94.5% (but got another 83 paper BAHHHH). Silliness Inc. Yesterday Matt and Deborah and Carolyn and I had a small adventure because they dropped by and said they were hungry, so we all went a-searching for food. Those two.. good times & noodle salad. Deborah used Carolyn's facial hair trimmer thing on her eyebrows and freaked out. "This one is longer!!" We're like, PUT IT DOWN. Yay. Ah, I'm talking too much. I have to do some Calculus and Search before I go to Walgreens to pick up meds and powder and bodywash. Then, Friends is on, and we never miss it because Carolyn has no life. :) JUST KIDDING, LITTLE BUDDY!!!!

October 15 2003
[12:58pm] People in lunch lines annoy me. Everybody is so concerned with getting their food that they don't mind if they're stepping on your feet or face or whatever. Hrmph.

[11:12am] Yesterday was Happiness Inc. After receiving the Halloween card, I was invited to attend Lion King Day, which first consisted of dressing entirely in pink and going to Chili's, again; I went Sunday night with Carolyn, Laura, and Jenn, too. I had shotgun this time (most of the time), so Deborah and Matt and Laura were all squeezed and cozy into the back of Carolyn's car. Haha! Matt got to sit on the hump: I call the hump, I like the hump, I LOOOVE the hump, I'm the hump-boy! Life reflecting art. "Give me some room, I have to remount" when he fell off the hump. He really is the hump-boy. We went to Matt's room then; it is HUMONGOID. They have a couch and an entertainment center and a little bathroom on the side.. We have a little bathroom on the side but absolutely NO ROOM for a couch or an entertainment center. Our entertainment center consists of a little TV perched on my dresser. Anyway, so we watched the Lion King and it was even better than I had remembered, but I really missed my Kristen and Joey because we all watched it that one night and it was wonderful.. Sigh. I made social commentaries, and got confused between integration and segregation. When it was over, we retreated to Robinson, and talked with Jenn a little bit--poor Jenn. Being sick sucks. That's why they call it "sick".. cuz it's one letter away from "suck". Then I came back to the room and did homework and thought about stuff and went to sleep.

October 14 2003
[2:02pm] I checked my mail and I got a Happy Halloween card from my Grammy! That's the coolest thing ever! I was overjoyed.

[12:54pm] Happy 7-month birthday to me. Here's my present: in order to keep my merit-based scholarship, I only have to have a 2.75.. AHAHHAHAHA!!! This makes everything so much betta. I was freaking out a little about that 3.5, but now I can relax just a tiny bit and not have to be such a learning -obsessed freak. Off to eat with Laura and Olivia!

October 13 2003
[6:45pm] Another interesting thingy: We had to do this Discovery module in Calculus (everyone sighs and moans, "not another Calculus comment".. SHUT UP. I'll tell Calc stories if I want to) about Taylor polynomials and how they approximate nastier functions like exponentials and trig stuff.. Whatev. So I was typing this thing up about 15 minutes before it was due and in one glorious and inspired moment, the Canned Heat lyrics "Come on, come on; let’s work together" blurted out of my head and onto the paper, and it seemed so perfect at the time that I left it there. So today, when he was handing back homework and talking about our next Discovery Module write-up, he commended creativity; he said, "It's boring reading the same thing over and over. If there's any way you can spice it up a little, use creativity! Do so! One person used a song lyric, and someone else thought up a creative application of the integral." That second one was TOTALLY not me, but the first one TOTALLY was!!! YAYYYY! So "Discover Module" is far too neat a name for an assignment not to include clipart of a rocket ship on the next one, right?

[6:20pm] Dreams, eh? Two more kinda weird ones. Saturday night I dreamed that my high school Spanish classes all decided to go on a plane ride somewhere, and we did, but everybody got sick. I was going around asking people "Estas bien?" People were answering, "No, estoy MUY mal..." I'm just.. you know. Ugh. And then last night I dreamed that my Daily Themes class went to Prof Finlayson's house, either because we had something academic to do or because there was a killer on the loose, murdering people, and she was to whom we were turning. We went to her house and she had two kids and a cat (all this is stuff I've learned from class..) and she came out and we all left, but the weird part was that everyone was speaking French. Except me, because I don't speak French. Two very language-oriented dreams, eh pahdnah? Olivia's Timperson came over yesterday and he was ultracool; he knows about physics n stuff. I was making Jen her awesome collage - I forgot to take a picture of it, but one day I will go around the dorm collecting all the collages so I can take them over to the library and scan them for your viewing pleasure, and then redistribute them to their respective owners. Ta-da!!!

October 11 2003
[6:12pm] I had this weird dream last night where I was in this house of mirrors with some friends and I lost a tooth. Much more weirdness ensued but it's too strange to describe. I can't even remember the order of things. Only the house of mirrors and my smile with a hole in it. That has to mean my subconscious is thinking about something particular.

[4:05pm] Today's my dad's birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!! In other news, Joey and I get to hang out tonight and I'm happy. I think that's like some kind of formula .. me + Joey = happy.

[9:58am] Sometimes being home is just right. I guess that's why they call it home.

October 9 2003
[2:46pm] I am both physically and emotionally exhausted. And intellectually, too, while we're at it. My brain and stomach are fighting to see which can cause me more pain; in Calculus this morning I had to shield my eyes from the light, and I think I'm still confused about the convergence tests, but I guess I'll figure it out. Or fail. You know, whatever. We shared our papers today in Daily Themes and Prof Finlayson said that I was actually doing well with Show vs. Tell, the very thing I was worried about my paper in the first place. I still think the paper is kinda weak in spots; the argument is too thinly-stretched.. It makes me exhausted. I have a Spanish test in 10 minutes, but I'm not worried since I have the verb tenses down and the countries are already familiar to me (Puerto Rico, Venezuela, Bolivia, and one other one.. I forget.) Anyway, I'll try to finish that as quickly as possible so that I can come back, start my laundry, run to Blockbuster to return Fight Club (which we rented on Monday for Movie night with Matt -- yay alliteration), keep laundry going, do a theme and finish my Calc work, read the rest of Search and write down some random questions, shave my legs and fall into a deep slumber, hopefully by 10:00 pm. Maybe 11:00. Best get started off to class. Maybe we'll start early.

[10:14am] If there is a way for you to hear these three songs, I would deeply recommend that you do it: Dispatch - The General, Jump Little Children - Cathedrals, Hot Hot Hot - Talk to Me & Dance With Me. Other than that, I only have two pictures for you.
 

 
 

October 8 2003
[1:11pm] I'm sorry that I've been neglectful, kids. My dad told me that some of my loyal readership has been crying out for more updates. You just cannot understand how hard I've been working since I got here. Calculus takes up all my time, and when I'm not doing that, there are themes to be written (plus a five page paper due TOMORROW, I'm writing it on a the decline of "the date" as a social institution; it's going pretty well), and Search readings to be perused and questioned, classes, eating, sleeping.. Some responsibilities get lost in the shuffle. However, my cute anecdote for the day is this: I think I'm finally starting to find my niche. (My "Nie-kuh," as that guy on TV said.) Today, after Calculus I go to lunch. I'm standing in the lunchline, like any other day, so that when I get to the front, I can order my two hotdogs. It's a routine, and I love it. Today, however, I'm the last person in line, but this girl Jennifer who works in the Lair sees me at the end of the line and calls out "Two hotdogs?" And I smile broadly in surprise and nod happily. Yayyyyy!!! They know me by my food. In high school, I used to talk to the lunchlady a little bit, ask her how it was going and stuff.. It's nice to be able to relate to that again. Okay, back to the paper. Whee.

October 4 2003
[1:55pm] God, I LOVE Saturdays. I can sleep as late as I want to (i.e., 1:45pm). It's grrreat.

October 2 2003
[2:47pm] Every time that I think I'm doing well, I get behind again. Sigh. My Calculus test score was an 81% if I didn't already write that; my Spanish score was a 92% because I decided not to care about it. In order to keep my scholarship, I have to have a 3.5 GPA, which means I can have 2 As and 2 Bs. I'm thinking Search and Calculus will be my Bs because they are death-defyingly work-oriented, and Spanish and Daily Themes will be As because one I love so dearly and the other is just.. you know. Don't caringly easy. Off to that one right now! Maybe more updates later if I decide to take a break from my hours of calculus (represented by t for time, )Ahhh!

September 28 2003
[9:16pm] One week later: that was the most traumatic, weird, awful week ever, except yesterday. So much bad stuff. Doctor's appointments, shots, Calculus tests and lots of studying (I find out tomorrow how I did), trying to come home and having a blowout 20 miles into Arkansas (AND THEN the battery dies), so not getting to come home. But Dad came and saved the day and my car, so I went home yesterday and it was beautiful. I have the best boyfriend EVER. Ever. So now I'm back and Carolyn and Laura and I had dinner with Megan and Matt. Matt's so much fun. He's from Springfield, so we're on the same team. We're both really angry about the lack of Baskin Robbins in the state. We're going to write letters. BR will probably send us an autographed picture of ice cream or something, "To my biggest fan, best wishes, Chocolate Mocha." Matt's idea. He cracks me up. We tried to get him to go with us to get some ice cream, but he's studious and antisocial. Whatever works for him. I threw my wallet at him in an attempt to persuade him, to no avail. Studious, schmudious. So we got Frosty's and now I'm trying to study. Yay CALCULUS!!!! YAY TAYLOR'S THEOREM!! I'm.. so.. happy.. to be back. =p Also: Yay for Phantom Planet, whose "The Guest" I cannot get enough of. 8 hours of driving to it was not enough, I guess.

September 21 2003
[1:20pm] Also, I'm working on updating the "But I Want" section. It may not be today, but who knows?

[12:56pm] I had a very weird dream last night: I was taking this strange class--ice skating/German or Russian. We were putting on an ice ballet and we had to read our parts out of this book while we skated around, doing tricks, whatev. The teacher was this short man in all black with a beatnik vibe. "Rrrread zeh part! It starts ovv wit '[some unintelligible Russian/German]' and den continuu!" After what seems like hours of confusion, I'm like "I DON'T SPEAK RUSSIAN!" And the beatnik instructor goes, "Oh. Vell dat explains it. You're in zeh wrrrong class." And I left. Then I dreamed that a whole bunch of girls in tubetops wanted to beat up Carolyn, but I stepped in and kicked their butts. Hmm. Interpretation, anyone? (P.S. I saw Cabin Fever yesterday: I recommend strongly -- don't see it.) (P2.S. I also saw Blowdry. I recomend strongly -- DO see it. It's good times.)

September 17 2003
[10:30am] Yesterday Laura and Carolyn and I got into my car with my collection of CDs, some socks, and the directions to the Mall of Memphis in hopes of going ice skating there. We found our way there easily enough (without almost getting on any major interstates this time), but we arrived and were mystified. There were hardly any stores open; there were only closed-down barred-up shops. We wondered if the mall was closing, but it closed at 9:00 and we arrived at 7:30. It was a ghost mall. Anyway, we went to the place where you rent skates and the guy told us that it wasn't even open for the public at that time. He gave us the hours that it would be available to us, though. We walked around a little more, just seeing if there was anything to do in the mall--we found the "Play Center", which was like four of those kiddie rides where you put a quarter in and it rocks back and forth: two of them were out of service, but Carolyn rode the motorcycle (and it cost 50¢ of MY money because she begged and prodded til I gave it to her.) I wished more than anything that I had a camera. Then we tried to find the movie theater, which on the map looked like it was past the ice rink, so we went back into the skate rental place. Carolyn walked right past the guy and right past the rink in search of the theater, while I stopped to ask the guy if the theater was open. That went kind of like this:
 
Me: Is the movie theater open? We're kind of new to town.
Guy: No, it's been closed for like, ever. They say they're going to do renovations, but.. *giving me a stupid look*
Me: Well, we just got into town.
Guy: Well, it's been closed forever.
 
That's when I get tired of the conversation and I run after Carolyn because she has gone past where you're supposed to go rink-wise. Then we left the mall and hit Blockbuster (Romeo + Juliet, Baz Luhrman style; and The Ring, which Carolyn refuses to watch, but we're all going to watch it on Thursday night whether she likes it or not.) No car accidents, no fights, no nothing. We got back and we heard about the TriDelt drama, though. Kourtney (Laura's rm) is a TriDelt and she was came in, like "Wow, I'm so not supposed to be back yet. But the big sister TriDelts gave us these coolers as presents -- but they were filled with beer! So we were all just sitting around with our coolers and big sisters and stuff, and a COP walks in!" I didn't catch every intricacy of this story, but somehow most people managed to not get arrested (but I only heard the story from Kourtney and Stephanie, who left early, so I don't know what happened to the people who stayed with their coolers.) We finished watching R+J and Carolyn and I came back to the room. Sometime around 9:30 am or so, I smelled something burning but rolled over and went to sleep. Many a time I have smelled a phantom scent, so I just disregarded it. Later, though, when Carolyn got up, Stephanie and Lauren were like freaking out because Stephanie put her Starbucks cup in the microwave and it caught fire. But it's all under control and things are okay.

September 16 2003
[1:46pm] So my family came down this weekend and brought Joey: things were wonderful. I gave everyone a little tour of campus, showed them where I sit in my classes and where the library is, let Rosco run around in the Row of Oaks a little bit. When they left, I was feeling sad so I got Laura and Carolyn together and we took my car to Wendy's and around town to see what was where--after almost getting onto 240 (AHH!), we went to the grocery store where I got some Cheetos and Fruit by the Foot, back to the campus where we watched Sleeping Beauty. Last night we watched Forrest Gump (poor Laura had an 8:00 class), and tonight we're planning on going ice skating somewhere after our classes/homework/whatev. Yay! Oh, also:
 

 

September 12 2003
[12:40pm] I have this feeling that I'm getting spoiled. Every time I've been to my mailbox in the last four days, there has been a package. Really, it's too much. I'm getting so that I almost expect packages. But, THANK YOU MOM for the chocolate covered cherries. One of these days I'm going to have to start making time to work out. Or just NEVER EVER take an elevator (which is my goal) unless I'm carrying laundry. Then I'll have to. But I go up and down flights of stairs every day. It's great. But maybe I need more. All these hot dogs and waffles (THEY HAVE WAFFLES AT THE RAT!!! WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME??!??!) and chocolate-covered cherries.. I don't know what I'll do with myself. Okay, yay, time to attack some Calculus since I didn't do any of it yesterday (but neither did anyone else. So I was safe. Here we go!) P.S. My family is visiting me this weekend! Maybe I should clean up a bit.

September 11 2003
[4:25pm] Yeah, so. When I get a little freetime, I'll update the "But I Want" list, so you can all send me presents. And if you don't know my address to send presents to, email me. If you don't know my email address and don't know any of my friends from whom you can get it, you don't get to know my real address, because that's how it works. Off to fetch my laundry! :)
 

 

[10:56am] I know, I know: the timing is bad with this being a solemn day of remembrance, but I woke up in a really good mood this morning. It doesn't happen often, only sometimes: so I have to treasure it. Also: I drew this comic for my Daily Themes contribution for our New Yorker that we're creating. I'll put it up as soon as I can. I have Calculus in a very short while.

September 10 2003
[10:50am] What a cleansing experience it is to pour out all your worries into an NY3 for Daily Themes. In other news: we began reading Genesis 1:1-3:24 for Search. I'm just now realizing how unread I am, in the Bible. I mean, I know some stuff, but I was trying to explain "post-exilic" to Carolyn: which exile? I know of one and a half. I know of the exile from Eden, and then I sort of know of one where a whole bunch of people were kicked out of somewhere.. Carolyn, who went to a Catholic school before coming here, knows all this stuff up and down. A whole bunch of people got exiled from the Promise Land, she says. So I guess that's what we're talking about. After that exile. Anyway, it's inspiring me to read more Bible. In other, other news: my family is coming this weekend to visit me. Maybe bringing Joey. Looking forward to it. Okay, so my suitemates in their room just shouted, "I love Rose(??).. woo-oo!" Cool. Random.

September 9 2003
[4:15pm] Somebody puked outside in the hall and it smells so bad. I really don't like to go outside the room because getting out requires walking through the stench of vomit and cleaning chemicals. It's unpleasant. More updates when I get happy. Back to my ultra, ULTRA lame Spanish homework. Crucigrama, I despise you.

September 5 2003
[11:00am] For Search, I'm reading the Egyptian creation myths -- weird stuff. There's far too much creepy information like when Re finds out his wife Nuit was unfaithful to him with her brother (creepy enough, right? NO), he locks the unborn children of her affair inside her so that she couldn't give birth to them, but that she had to carry them around, supposedly forever. (Later you find out that Thoth, who was all sympathetic, figured out a way to let Nuit have her babies -- it has something to do with the moon cycles, adding 5 days to the 360-day lunar year. I can't quite figure it out.) Hey, Kelly, this next part will be of interest to you. Also of note: My suitemates are listening to Cher's Greatest Hits or something. Oh and guess which song is on right now? "Walkin in Memphis." Such cool girls. Now security they did not see him; they just hovered round his tomb; but there's a pretty little thing waiting for the King down in the Jungle Room..

September 3 2003
[8:59am] So Joey and I hung out each night I was home, and Kristen and I hung out at the mall on Sunday. That was great fun. Joey and I rented About Schmidt (forgive me, I'm too tired to link), and it was an abomination. It was utterly depressing the entire time and just when you expect a relieving ending, no: it's Kathy Bates naked. So never mind all that. Just spending time with the kids while I'm home is very important. In other news: I'm back at school, finally got my Calculus textbook (and am having a little better luck with the problems -- a very little), found someone (Laura the third musketeer's roommate Courtney) with another Calc textbook to maybe help me out, have made an appointment with an RCC to come fix Carolyn and my computers (our port was shut down because of a virus? not me) -- I'm really excited about this one because he'll also certify us and then I'll be able to deposit my daily themes like it's nuthin. Also, I'm getting the last sig for my add/drop slip this morning before my first class, so I can run to the Registrar to get this bad boy taken care of. Woot! Spanish 202! (Don't take that the wrong way, either. We're still reviewing ser and estar in there and I'm about to drop myself on my own head out of sheer boredom. It's great, as you might imagine.) So things are finally smoothing out. But the homework around here never ceases!!!

August 30 2003
[3:30pm] I'm home, guys. I've been home since about 8:00 yesterday -- Joey and I saw Jeepers Creepers 2, which I suspect would have been a whole lot scarier if I had seen the first one. Unfortunately, I hadn't. Fortunately, I didn't care because it wasn't really about the movie. :) Kristen comes home today and I'll actually get to see her tomorrow: shopping! Or something. The point of coming home is to spend time with the people I love: the point is not that I must do deep philosophically satisfying things. A good horror movie (which JC2 was not) and a friend/family member/boyfriend will suffice to make me happy. Okay kids. Gonna write a critical response paper and then maybe a theme, or not. Dunno.

August 29 2003
[10:40am] There is so much homework ALREADY. I mean, I definitely have it under control -- except for Calculus, but it's hard without having your book available or with my binder at home. I'll figure it out when I come home this weekend. Other than that, everything is going very well. I finished Gilgamesh. I also went to Daily Themes for the first time yesterday; I've decided that I'm going to love that class. Gotta try and write a theme today before I leave. Yay!

August 27 2003
[10:21am] Classes start in roughly 39 minutes.. 38 now. I'm not really nervous except for the Spanish mix-up.. Anyway. That story I promised you earlier; well, I'm going to simply do a cut-and-paste maneuver (I had suddenly forgotten how to spell that, thank goodness for dictionaries) from an e-mail I sent to Joey. Here goes: But Maroon 5. While.. I don't know. They rock and rolled. People were there to see them and they could tell and I could tell and it was loud. This girl on my floor, though, her name is Lily.. she has stopsign red hair (dyed) and facial piercings and isn't afraid to be herself, which is a thoughtful, outspoken person. I have a lot of respect for her. At one point during the concert, M5 wasn't playing any music, they were kinda just standing there letting college girls sweat over them, and Lily shouts "NAME YOUR HAIR PRODUCT!!" This lead singer guy, he has great hair. But I was upset when he gives her a look like "You insignificant.. what a loser.." and only answers her question in that way. She leaves, looking distraught, a few minutes later. I think it was at about that point that I stopped having fun. So I left the concert early. When you are a big rockstar, you need to be a nice person. If someone asks you your hair product, indulge them, please. It isn't that hard, and it makes someone feel special that you would divulge such juicy info with a mere fan. So maybe I'm too sensitive, but, it's my life.

August 26 2003
[12:15pm] I forgot to mention! There was this big sorority socializing party happening in the Amphitheatre last night.. it was officially called "Welcome Back Amphitheatre Party" - Join all students at this dance party with a live band providing the music. You'd think that it would be some college band - no. Opening was Melbourne, and that was fantastic. They really played their heart out. But the main band was Maroon 5, whom I'm sure you've heard of. If not, COME OUT OF THAT CAVE YOU'RE LIVING IN AND DOWNLOAD OR BUY THEIR CD OR WHATEV: "HARDER TO BREATHE" IS NOT TO BE MISSED!!!.. (lol.. Shut up and listen to the beautiful sounds!).. So they were awesome but a little upsetting to me - I'll tell you the story of Lily and "name your hairproduct" and dismissal in a bit. My fingers are... tired.

[11:51am] I took the big foreign language test and the results were this: "You passed the test. Would you like to take the oral exam, or if you're taking more Spanish courses, those will fulfill the requirement here..." So out of 201 and into 202 if I can finagle my way through the complicated land of Registrars and signatures and whatnot. Classes start tomorrow and one of the owners of the signatures I need is out of town: grr. But I talked with my Advisor (also my Calc II teacher), and he suggests that I just go to the classes that I WANT and see how things work from there. So the adventure begins. Anyway, my schedule looks pretty good, if a little late in the day. It's okay though - I tend to get up around 9:00 or 9:30; real studying and homework and stuff can be done between 9:30 and 11:30 when Calculus starts. (Starting the day with math - something I've always dreamed of.) In any case, I'm so thankful for this basket of cookies.. there was no card or anything, but I'm assuming it's from my mom, dad, best friend, or boyfriend. But I'm really thinking my mom. So thanks, whoever! :) They're delectable!

August 25 2003
[2:08pm] So those pictures..
 

 
 
 
   

[12:08pm] Things are still okay. I had a bad stretch there for a little bit, but then I took a run and gave myself a stern talking-to and called myself "Wussy" and kept busy and went shopping and cleaned the room and signed the Honor Code pledge. So I'll try to take some pictures later this afternoon of the room in it's updated condition. I don't have anything to do today until 5:30, so if you know me and see me online, talk to me. If I'm not online, I'm probably reading the Epic of Gilgamesh for my Search class, or buying books for my other classes, or who knows what? Latah, kids.

August 22 2003
[12:55pm] Things are going well, so far. I've met my roommate, Carolyn. She's supernice and I already feel like she can actually be my friend. At least, she's a nice break from all the tiny petite blondes running around here. It's crazy; like there's a cloning facility or something that's churning them out and Rhodes is like "WE'LL TAKE EM!" Anyway. Everything is going well; my schedule is fine and dandy (just as I requested--not everyone was so lucky.) Things are exciting and busy, but I found some time to take some pictures. They're already outdated, because I hadn't unpacked everything yet, but.. I'll update with those when I have more time. For now, enjoy:
 

 
 
 
 

August 20 2003
[8:10am] So today I leave for college. I can't handle this missing people thing. It's too hard. Catch you on the flip-side.

August 19 2003
[7:17pm] The things that brighten our days. :) Silly little things. Brianna told me today that Andy K missed me in OWLS and I was just like "aww.. I miss him too". I told her to tell him "Rod Stewart" and she was like "... Rob Stew?" "RoD StewART." So I hope the message gets passed along: makes me happy. Makes me sad: leaving in 2 days. It's a little exciting, but.. intimidating.. I don't know. I'm such a jumble, I don't know anything that I'm feeling.

[3:08pm] Gah. Kristen's at camp and doesn't have much access to a computer, nor time to blabber and chew the cud with me.. but I want to tell her about things that are happening. My mom and I are sending her a present and it's adorable but I can't tell you what it is yet because it's a surprise and I don't want to ruin it. It is also strange that during the day no one is online because they're all at school. And I'm not. But I will be! And I'm packing for that. Despite random crying fits and spurts of "I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING", I feel pretty good about it. I've got a good idea as to what to bring (even in the midst of those hopeless moments where I'm sitting in my room with mounds of my crap surrounding me and I just think "... I'm never going to be able to do this.") I just need to try and get it done during today and tomorrow while the everybody is at school so that I can maybe see Joey in the evening(s??). Off to work I go (return).

August 18 2003
[2:39pm] So everybody went to school today (that is, everybody who is still going to high school.) I went to work to pick up my paycheck, then I deposited it, and then I came home. I'm still trying to finish up my laundry, clean, pack, etc. Craziness. Hope to spend time con El Novio esta noche.

[12:14pm] What I got done yesterday from my list: work 5-9 (more like 9:30 by the time I got the busload of crazy people out -- "YOU'RE SO PALE!!" - "I am not!"), got Biore pore strips and a couple of other things, and refilled my Rx. I still need stamps and maybe boxes. I'm going to finish my laundry today and start packing. Trying to decide what I really need and what I don't. One thing that I do really need is to clean up around here. I've been trying to clean up my areas: my room, the bathroom, and soon the downstairs desk. I know that if I come home for a weekend or something, I won't want it to be messy. So I clean. I'll tell you more later.

August 17 2003
[12:19pm] You'll forgive my sporadic postings. You will. You have to, because I'm trying to get ready to go to college. I'm moving to Memphis, see, and it's a big deal. I'm doing okay on the whole not-seeing-Kristen thing, but I think I'm mainly just in denial. I'll see her when she gets back from her camp. Yeah, that's it. Really, the next time I talk to her, I'll be living in Memphis. Whoop. I've also been trying to spend as much time as possible with Joey, because I know I'm going to miss him terribly. There are still some things I have to do: buy boxes, Biore pore strips, stamps; refill prescription; get Joey's house address; do all my laundry, whilst making sure to only wear clothes that I'm not interested in taking down there; pack; move... Ahh.. a little overwhelming. It's okay though. I'll just take it easy. Work today 5-9, pick up my check tomorrow, ask them to mail this week's check to Rhodes. Must remember to take address. Must.

August 14 2003
[4:11pm] Happy 5 month birthday, self. Thanks. I'm having an EXTREMELY hard time dealing with the idea of everybody leaving and stuff. Kristen leaves tomorrow afternoon and I leave a week from today. I was really freaking out last night--crying was my only option. We talked online and she'd say something funny and I'd laugh for a second but go right back to sobbing my head off. I don't know what I'm going to do (and I'm not even at college yet!)

August 10 2003
[5:46pm] Dance Dance Revolution is.. a phenomenon I don't quite understand. It's really something to watch two teenage boys (who have previous shown no interest in dancing) play. I'm thinking this is a great thing for teenage boys because maybe they'll use these dance moves in their future dancing careers, because I doubt they'd ever learn to dance otherwise.

August 8 2003
[7:39pm] I wore my red Lucky University shirt to Target and I was sitting on a chair at the desk with Kristen, at the fitting rooms and people kept asking me questions, like I worked there or something. Note to self: no red shirts while visiting Target. Too complicated.

[5:23pm] What a day. I went in at 8 and started off with doing a crapload of salads. I swear, like.. 100 salads. After that, Steven asked me to do legs & bases in the dining room, which means to go wipe down (really: scrub down) chair legs and table bases with a blue towel and some Spic n' Span.. I spent 2 hours and only got about halfway before Lisa told me to take my break. Then after my break, I did sandwiches.. all while the FSO was doing an evaluation and Richard (the franchise store owner) was evaluating and everyone was in eachother's way.. I got off of work early: at 2. So I came home, took a shower, and decided to go give Kristen her glasses back. She was doing Operator, which involves sitting back at the desk by the fitting rooms and answering the phone. When there was no phone ringing, I'd talk to her. When the phone rang, I was quiet. I let her do her work, but kept her company until 5:00, when she got off and I came home. I put on a mud mask and did the dishes. Now you're up to date. (This has to be the most boring journal evuh. I'll try to have a more exciting life for you kids to read. It may interest you that I'm going to college soon so that may prove.. something.)

August 7 2003
[9:50pm] Today: check, check, check, check. Tomorrow: work 8-5, return sunglasses to Kristen, do dishes, see boyfriend (hopefully.) P.S. Band camp visit=big success. Really made me sad though. Reasons: I was excluded from knowing this year's show, because I have graduated. I wish I were still in it, even though I always said I'd be happy once I was out. I'm out, and I'm not happy. I was glad to see all the friends. SCOTTY HAS A MOHAWK!!!!! It is the coolest thing I have ever seen, but that can be said about Scotty as well. He is such a rockstar. He makes me wish I were cooler. Anyway, I went to the senior boys' cabin (as I always did) and ate their honey roasted peanuts and a few of Burke's cookies and held hands with my boyfriend and left. It was not long enough of a visit. That's why there is a tomorrow. (Oh, and because the world keeps turning.)

August 6 2003
[9:59pm] Tiny little 5-hour work shift today: easy. Tomorrow: clean bathroom, get oil change, go to band camp, see boyfriend & rest of friends.

August 5 2003
[1:25pm] I have things to do. Instead, I'm dorking around on my computer. I should be ashamed of myself.

August 4 2003
[9:33pm] Everyone is off to band camp, except Kristen, Rob, CC, and myself. But since I only talk regularly to Kristen, it's a lonely world. (No bf, boohoo.) So tonight my mom and I went shopping for college stuff: quilt, towels, refrigerator, robe, and a Cinnabon. I still need a TV (I think) and slippers, a purse to go with dresses, and cute little red shoes.

August 2 2003
[12:27pm] So Six Flags rocked the big one. Kristen and I hung out by ourselves from about 9:00 til 2:30ish, and that was awesome. We made a visit to Pearl Harbor slash Tsunami Bay slash Hurricane Harbor. We had to buy towels, because we forgot to bring our own. That was expensive. Then the boys came. We were supposed to meet them by the fountain, but since they were late, we decided to trick them by putting the towels over our heads like turbans/Eskimo hoods.. but that didn't fool them. Then we went on all the rides and it was wonderful spending time with those kids, esp. my boyfriend. Everybody left around 7:15ish.. The only way the day could have been better was if I had remembered to bring a towel and if Scotty O and Shawn and Rob could have come. July 31st was Joey's and my 2 month anniversary, but we spent it just hanging out at my house. We watched Minority Report. Yesterday I worked 11-8 and was very tired but bored when I got home, so Kristen and I saw American Wedding with a crowded theater full of people. Everyone was laughing SO loud, but I don't think I'd recommend it, since it was so sick. It's really gross-out humor, which doesn't serve me very well. But any time I can spend with Kristen before we all leave for all our separate colleges is well worth it. And so you're caught up with my life and I have to go to work til 6.

July 30 2003
[8:15am] Many pardons from the English crowd. ¡Hoy es el día de las Seis Banderas!! ¡Muy divertido! Y mañana es el día de los dos meses para José y yo. Muy romántico, ay ay ay..

July 29 2003
[8:51pm] I am supremely happy because I can forget about band camp until Sunday. Tomorrow and Thursday will be beautiful, happy days. Tomorrow=Six Flags from 10 AM-7 PM (and NO WORK!! *big grins*) with Kristen, Joey, Chris B, Chris C, and Mega. An even number of people. Good. It all works out excellently. Thursday=2 month anniversary with Joey, and I'll be supremely happy then too, because he makes me.. supremely happy! (And redundant as well.. supremely happy!) It is a very good thing to be so happy. (I know I won't be at this point next week, but even next Thursday, I'm going down to band camp to see everybody so it's good and dandy.)

[9:51am] I'm sad because band camp is coming up soon (which reminds me, I should ask off work for that Thursday) and that means no boyfriend. Much, much sadness. Yesterday, Joey and Kristen and I saw Pirates of the Caribbean and it was fun. Kristen and I are that RubberEye Pirate and that Baldy Sue Pirate.. Awesome. Yay, work today 12-6.

July 28 2003
[2:55pm] What a day. I spent far too much money, but I needed everything I bought. Yay for nice long pants...

July 27 2003
[9:57pm] Ahhh.. Yesterday Joey and I hit the mall and said hi to CC. I tried on a few fashion pieces, just for kicks and giggles, but didn't buy anything. (I usually don't buy anything with I go to the mall with people, only when I go buy myself, which I plan on doing tomorrow, with my day off.) We then went to Ronnie's to see Pirates, but it was sold out, so we went bowling instead. (So that's why my hand hurts today.) We played four games and I was very consistent in my scoring - 96, 96, 90, 101. Joey wasn't quite so consistent: 108, like 50, close to 60, 120 (but would have gotten higher if they hadn't shut down the lanes.) After that, we got some chocolate milk, oatmeal creme pie, and chococicle (I don't know how to spell that) and pigged out. It was awesome. He's the best boyfriend in the history of the world. Plans for tomorrow: brother chauffering (sp again), mall for some final summer clothes buying, laundry completion, room cleaning, and maybe some boyfriend time, since I didn't even get to talk to him today. And that's about it. Goodnight, dear friends.

July 26 2003
[8:21am] Despite my hugely long day at work yesterday (11-8), I went out with Kristen to see Extra Large (XLG=LXG). The last hour was boring, I was like "Yawn, fight scenes" but Kristen and I always make whatever we're doing fun. I have to work today 9-5, so I should be going.

July 23 2003
[10:07pm] Boyfriend time always rules.

[6:26pm] I found a whole batch of poetry from back in the day, so I rewrote it, revised it, and scanned it. It should be up soon, for your reading pleasure. Kristen and I visited band practice today and got Joey in trouble because he was giving the rookies a break after they had finished working. And they did work. And then we all hung out for a while (Joey, Shawn, Kristen, Rob, Lori, two colorguard kids, and me) and gabbed. Eventually we parted ways: Kristen and I went to McD's for some eats and then we went to her house to watch the MCCGA video, and we came up with some ideas for her guard show--when she's a clinician. It'll be "This is Halloween--duhduh duhduh duhduh DUHDUH... *stompy stompy dance* *BUSTIN OUT THE NUNFITS* *and then the pink spandexsuits" and tons more, I'm sure. Kristen will fill you in on the details. Tonight I'm just chilling out for a while, until maybe I get to visit with the boyfriend. *fingers crossed*

July 22 2003
[6:37pm] I think I'm just the happiest girl in the land. Not only are people buying me presents just because I say that I want them, but I also have the best boyfriend in the entire world. He and I went to Mastodon and Target yesterday, a nice little adventure. Today I worked 11-6, and that was pleasantly boring (very unbusy.) And that's all the news I have, except that I'd really like to talk to my buddy Keebers and she's at Pirates of the Caribbean right now. I hope she's with a certain booooyyyy... :) Yippee. Okay, well.. that's all I've got. Ciao.

July 21 2003
[5:11pm] We're a perfect match. Yep. "I'm so out of the whole grammar thing.. Summer's been affecting me.. I wish I could just take English class all year.."

[4:16pm] I visited the colo(r)guard practice with Kristen and then we were starving so we picked up and went to McD's (I know, I know.. traitor to Wendy's) and then we went to Wendy's to pick up my check, which was smaller than I was expecting, but it's still rather hefty so I'm happy. I also came up with a new feature for calapitter, which is like an Amazon Wishlist, but better because it's on calapitter, and I made it to suit my style. In "But I Want", you not only get a funky rendering of Christy Turlington, but a list of desired objects and (this is the best part) WHY I want them. So, go visit!
 

[9:51am] Today all the kids return to band practices, and Kristen and I might go to visit the colorguard practice and then I'll probably make her go to Wendy's so that I can pick up my paycheck. Whee!

July 18 2003
[4:56pm] Good thing I'm not depressed. I'm so hungry. It's unreasonable. Well, I guess not unreasonable.. because I haven't eaten today, but I hate eating after I get off work. Sigh. Eating. Okay, well.. Ty is starving as well and he's cooking and we're happy. Or will be, soon. KRISTEN CALL ME! AND STOP BEING SO SAD.

[3:17pm] So the thing at Dave's Banquet Center with the bands and stuff was cool. Nicole and Tim did take care of me, and Shawn too a little bit. And then when Joey was done playing, he took over. And that was great. First Light always impresses me, but in comparison with some of the other bands there.. Wow. Just amazing. "Sax & violins!" "It's hamster rock! *snf snf snf*" Even though it was all very nice, it ended when I got home and answered the phone. Stupid.. everything. Some people just aren't good. Anyway, work went really really fast today. Maybe it was when the electricity went out and they had to restart all the registers so I had an excuse to be stupid on frontline.. Or our humongous rush from like 11:30-1:00 that made everything go really fast. I don't know, but the 7 hours just sped by.

July 17 2003
[6:15pm] I'm such a loser. There's a First Light show tonight.. and my boyfriend is in First Light.. and I should go.. But I'm a loser and can't do anything without my other one-third (Kristen). She's working tonight. But suddenly I feel all of my shame at once and I muster some courage to go hang out with this year's sophomores (including my brother).. Tim and Nicole.. At least those three will take care of me. Okay, well, I just got off work so I should take a shower before I leave.. And change clothes. No one wants to see me in a Wendy's uniforn (except for Lauren, who came into my job today and saw me! -- When I told Kevin that she was my friend, Kevin replied with "Yeah right, you have no friends." I retorted "I should smack you." But I didn't smack him.) Stupid flea bites on my back. How unfashionable. Anyway.. maybe I'll go. Stupid $8 charge. Maybe I can pretend that I'm actually with the band.. No. I'll probably just pay it.

July 15 2003
[5:21pm] I'm not sure my feet are attached to my ankles anymore. Oh, wait. Is that what that insane throbbing is? Yeah, I guess it is. Note: this was a day full of nausea and I spent it feeling like my entire digestive tract was going to fly out of control, like one of those fire hoses when they're spraying water so hard that even the firemen can't hold on and it's just going crazy like an up-and-down snake, at any moment. I'm tired of feeling sick, and I'm sick of feeling tired. I totally stole that line from some country song I've never heard, probably.

[7:36am] I work entirely too much today. Starting at 8, ending at 5.. I'm probably going to just.. I don't know. Die, maybe. Or cry a lot. I'm so tired of being tough and making it through the day without whining. I don't know how I'm gonna do it. (Man, I am so whiney!!)

July 14 2003
[10:14pm] Happy 18 and 1/3 birthday to me! I saw Legally Blonde 2 today.. "Hi Allison, it's Cookie." :) Congrats to Kristen, who made the ultra-awesome-cool SMS lead rifle line. Very impressive. And I got my room-mate and living information from Rhodes. I'm all nervous and scared, but I think it'll be okay. I think. I hope. SWEET FOR SUITES!!

July 13 2003
[10:24pm] Yay for Lonnie, James, Devon, and Kevin. Those boys win. They actually made work bearable. Granted, it was only 4 hours, but I was so sick of working. I should have stayed another hour. Mo' money. But I was/am too tired. And yet, well, whatev.

[3:51pm] Too much working makes me tired. I don't wanna close today. :( 6-10=no.

July 12 2003
[11:35am] Awww!!! I just saw that Chevron commercial with the dirty car and the little pig that has fallen in love with the car.. it's adorable.

[10:58am] Jeremy just called me and so instead of just working 3-8, I'm working 12-8. Craziness. But good for money. Maybe tonight I'll go see Pirates of the Caribbean, League of Extraordinary Gentlemen, or Legally Blonde 2. Who knows? I may be too pooped for anything.

July 11 2003
[10:37pm] So Shawn's house was a lot of fun. It was just Joey, Shawn, Tim, and myself. It was great: a lot of inner-tube tossing and even one tube-explosion! Hahaha.. An hour of fun, since we didn't get over there until 9:15 or so, and I had to be home by 10:30. But it was very nice. Then there was work today.. A certain boy drove me absolutely insane (to the verge of actual violence) today. Oooh.. how I long to post his name here, but won't. "I need a double. .... Now, two doubles. .... Yes, I still need the doubles .... Two doubles?" "STOP [expletive] SAYING IT! I GOT IT.." "So.. if you got it, why don't I have the meat?" "It's NOT READY YET!!" Goodness glaciers. So why not just tell me? Anyway. I work 3-8 tomorrow, which should be drama and interesting and busy and just enough to put me in a bad mood. Whatev. I'm done with all this. Time to go lie down and write a letter and read a book and just chill for about 14 hours.

July 10 2003
[8:38pm] I want my mom and dad to adopt Tim so he can be my brother. I also want Tim to go to Shawn's house to swim. 
Becky: You will go or I will kill you in your sleep.
Becky: (Not really.. just an idle threat.)
Timmy: Well, whether or not I want to, it depends on my mom.
Becky: Watch someone actually kill you in your sleep tonight and everyone will blame it on me.
Timmy: As I'm dying I'll write a note.
Timmy: "Was...not...Becky... *glug*"

[10:52am] WAHOO! Got my AP results from Rhodes today! The only one my school offers is Calculus AB, and I got a 4 on it! Eat that! Yeah, mmm, tastes good!

July 9 2003
[5:16pm] This guy walks into a psychiatrist's office, sits down on the couch, and shouts, "You gotta help me, Doc! I'm a teepee.. No, I'm a wigwam. No, I'm a teepee.. Wait.. Wigwam.." The doctor shushes him and says, "You gotta relax! You're two tents!"

[3:05pm] My dog has SOME sense. He'll eat anything, but not lettuce. (BLEH!)
 

11/17/03
Ben Kweller - Family Tree
Dispatch - Bats in the Belfry
Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood
Jack Black - Let's Get It On
Jimi Hendrix - Fire
Marvin Gaye - Let's Get It On
Pat Benetar - ["the fancifility song"]
Sade - Kissing You
Weezer - Suzanne

10/09/03
3 Days Grace - I Hate Everything About You
Beach Boys - I Get Around
Beastie Boys - Intergalactic
Bob Marley - No Woman No Cry
Cat Stevens - First Cut Is the Deepest
Dire Straits - Sultans of Swing
Dispatch - Elias
Dispatch - The General
Fleetwood Mac - Landslide
Geggy Tah - Whoever You Are
Hanson - Mmmbop
Jane's Addiction - Been Caught Stealing
Jimi Hendrix - Manic Depression
Jump Little Children - Cathedrals
Jump Little Children - Close Your Eyes
Lady and the Tramp - Bella Notte
Pat Benatar - Love Is a Battlefield
Robin Hood - Love
Saves the Day - Firefly
Simple Plan - Perfect
Sublime - Garden Grove
Weezer - Only in Dreams

09/16/03
Aerosmith - Dream On
Black-eyed Peas (f. Justin T) - Where Is The Love
Coldplay - The Scientist
Dandy Warhols - We Used to Be Friends
Electric Six - Danger! High Voltage
Eric Clapton - Wonderful Tonight
Evanescence - Going Under
Eve 6 - Think Twice
Greenwheel - Breathe
Hot Hot Heat - Talk to Me, Dance With Me
Interpol - PDA
Kenna - Freetime
Maroon 5 - Sunday Morning
Radiohead - Everything in Its Right Place
Rooney - Blueside
Saves the Day - Anywhere With You
Taproot - Poem
Weezer - Dope Nose

08/17/03
All-American Rejects - Last Song
Justin Timberlake - Rock Your Body
Phantom Planet - Recently Distressed
Snoop Dogg f. Pharrell - Beautiful
Spoon - I Could Be Underground
Used - Blue and Yellow

08/08/03
Ataris - Boys of Summer
Interpol - Obstacle 1
Juliana Theory - This Is the End
Prodigy - Breathe
Prodigy - Firestarter
Trapt - Headstrong
VAST - Flames

07/20/03
Busta Rhymes - I Know What You Want
Christina Aguilera - Fighter
Coldplay - Shiver
Deftones - Minerva
Dismemberment Plan - Time Bomb
Dust Brothers - Fight Club Mix
Linkin Park - Faint
Radiohead - There, There
Simple Plan - Addicted
Taking Back Sunday - Cute Without the E
T.a.t.u. - How Soon Is Now
Used - Buried Myself Alive

07/09/03
Audioslave - Like a Stone
Breaking Benjamin - Skin
Default - Live a Lie
Good Charlotte - Girls & Boys
Hot Hot Heat - Bandages
Linkin Park - Somewhere I Belong
S-Cat Shroedingers - When Doves Cry
White Stripes - Seven Nation Army

Chronicles: Everything I've written.
KillTime: Bored? Little quizzes for you.
Linkage: It's called the web for a reason.
Photog: All my pictures and travels.
Poetry: It's all mine. Every single word.
Retired: Old layouts, just sleeping away.
But I Want: A wishlist of sorts. Informational.