March 15 04
[9:32am] Yesterday was a fairly happy and magnificent day. I got back to Rhodes and started unpacking and realized that I REALLY, REALLY don't have enough room in my chest of drawers (chesterdrors) for all my pants to go in. Most pants I have here don't even fit me. So here's the solution: put the pants that don't fit into a suitcase under my bed. Ta-da!! Anyway, I got back and Drew came over and we listened to my suitemate talk loudly to one of her friends, telling a story about some guy on campus named Joe, I think, saying "I don't even know you. Don't impregnate me." Hmm. So, whatever. Then Matt came and I couldn't stand the hilarity, plus his hair was gelled and that was beyond my threshold of joy, too. Then we all went to the airport to pick up Dear Laura (not "Dead" Laura) and Arla (Deb's roommate).. and it was really fun too, except Laura let us all down because she didn't bring us fun stuff from Oklahoma (like there is any fun stuff in Oklahoma), except for me because it was my birthday!! And I got this KILLA THRILLA PILLA (pillow) (pill-OWW) in the shape of a B but that comes later. We got Laura and Arla and back to Rhodes we went to drop off Arla and suitcases, and off to Schnucks, for the birthday cake!! We picked out a chocolate one with pink icing and ribbon and stars/flowers sprinklies, and it was great. And paper plates too, but we left those in the back of Drew's car. I felt bad for making Drew drive so much, but I don't know how to get to the airport, and had we tried, we most certainly would've ended up crying on the side of the road somewhere, bemoaning my bad driving and perhaps the death of my car.. Which, by the way, went over 100,000 miles yesterday.. At mile marker 30 in Arkansas. I'm pretty convinced that everything important for my car happens in Arkansas, which is unfortunate. So then we scampered on over to Huey's, because it was 7:00 by now and we were STARVING.. Except that my food didn't taste that good and the Dr. Pepper was contaminated and I was saving room for the cake. So we got back to Rhodes and went to my room and Carolyn came back and then a million people showed up!! (And by a million, I mean like, TEN, plus me.) THAT'S A LOT OF PEOPLE.. especially for a smallish dorm room. But I was incredibly joyful and I gave Deb and Laura their presents but we had to open them in the hall since Deb was shy about it in front of people. It was good anyway. So then we came back and celebrated with cake, which turned out to be contaminated also.. it was moist in a bad way and the chocolate was just weak or something. Olivia still ate two pieces, which I love her for. Around 11:30, the party dispersed and Carolyn and I went to sleep at 12:30, thankfully, because we were both exhausted. And I'm still tired. And now I'm just angry at my Calc teacher because I spent 3 days (or maybe 4) of break doing my Calc homework, due on Monday. And he says today that it's not due at all, that we have a test on Friday, and to have a good day. I feel like weeping, but it's fine. This just means no homework for the rest of the week. WOOOOOT!! I can handle that. Plus we return to the Bible for Search this week, which I can always handle, because the Bible is my friend. Umm.. Spanish will be tolerable, I hope.. And Poetry=ease. All right. Now I have to figure out the extension cord situation because I frantically unplugged everything and hid all the cords so that I wouldn't get another fire hazard fine (and the first one wasn't my cord, Carolyn) *wink*.. And enjoy my huge chocolate bunny and Quarashi CD (the TWO packages that I chose to pick up today of the FOUR I received total.) WOOOT, again!!

March 14 04
[7:37am] Happy birthday me!! *All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go..* (to church).. *and then I'm gonna go on to Rhodes*.. Well, it won't be on a jetplane, but it'll be soon enough. Good thing I'm going back today, too, or otherwise I wouldn't get to show every single one of my Rhodies (Rhodesies?) (Rhodesfolk?) my gigantic hideous bruise! And we can't be missing out on that. I might even take a picture of the hideous thing. Oh yes, you can tell it's early because I'm not typing very well.. Um, what is newsworthy.. yesterday, for my family birthday, we went out to Pizza Hut by my request, for stuffed crust, and we bought an extra one to bring back to Rhodes. Woot. And my hair looks nice today, for some reason which eludes me but I don't mind. There is a raven or something outside my window squawking and it's making me angry. Time to go put on clothes and makeup.

March 11 04
[3:28pm] I'm listening to the Police's "Every Breath You Take" CD and thinking about car rides through Memphis with the windows down, and even though I like home, I'm missing being there, which is completely insane for me. I was thinking about this while I was showering last night: it used to be that I missed St Louis when I was in Memphis, but now the other way around--I'm starting to think that I just need something to miss at all times. But I don't think that's entirely true, either. I guess it suffices to say that I'm split between St Louis and Memphis, and it's becoming so that I find it's easy to call both home.

[9:42am] So I'm at home on Spring Break. It hasn't been much of a break with trying to find a job and getting various other things done. We celebrated my mom's birthday yesterday: I bought her Lost in Translation and Overboard on DVD, and a Yolanda Adams CD. We went out to eat at this place called The Old House in Kimmswick, which had teepees out front, and my brother had a bison burger. Cornbread, ain't nothing wrong with that! Since the job-hunting is essentially over (I hope), I'll spend today and Friday doing mountains of homework, and putting all the CDs in the land onto my computer because my dad gave me a 28 gig drive. Do you KNOW how much music this means??? Woah! So after Homework Thursday and Friday, we'll celebrate my birthday on Saturday and I'll drive back to Rhodes on my real birthday, Sunday. And we'll have a little party with cake. Oh, and here are some little pieces of my life lately.
 

 

March 3 04
[11:48am] Well, I was really tired so I decided to skip lunch, come back to the room to have a go at taking a nap since there was some of that interspersed between reading the Aeneid passages. HOWEVER. I come back here and where there was silence earlier, there are now airplanes and chainsaws (they cutting the limbs off a tree outside) and cars honking and it's just realy upsetting. So in a few minutes, I'm gonna go have lunch and then go to Spanish. But I'm mad now. I wanted that nap. Oh well. No classes Thursday so I'm going to sleep from 6:00 tonight to 7:45 am on Friday. YAY! By the way, MILLION FOR MARRIAGE is worth looking at.

March 2 04
[11:57am] I feel like I'm forgetting to tell you the other important things about my life: people who come to my room and say that we really lucked out with it and how they love being in here.. (the light in here in the afternoon IS spectacular..) How I wrote a poem but I'm debating keeping the first line of it since it's only added for shock value.. and though shocking, is fairly efficient in what its purpose is. How I really should've bought like 5 boxes of Girl Scout Thin Mints because even though Saintly Carolyn has bestowed numerous, numerous quantities of the Blessed Thin Mints upon me, it is never enough. Thank Goodness for my Spring Oreos (with the sky blue filling). And thank Goodness for iTunes. And thank Goodness for friends who come with you to your room for a beverage and a cookie after Search. And thank Goodness for Prof Murray, who cancelled Friday's Search class. And thank goodness for Prof Allen, who cancelled Friday's Polisci class. And thank goodness for Prof Watts, who cancelled Thursday's Poetry class--which makes today my only Poetry class of the week and I think that's all the thank Goodnesses I can give at this point without fainting of joy.

[11:43am] My birthday is in 12 days, people. I urge you to visit the Beautiful Birthday Gifts list. In other news: happiness ensues. It's kind of nice when you can just tell someone what you want and have them be ecstatic about it. Because then you're ecstatic too. ... (bursts into unrelated song.. but we watched Bridget Jones the other day) ... *When I was young I never needed anyone, and makin' love was just for fun, those days are gone..* P.S. I am getting a new phone RAH RAH SIS BOOM BAH!! :):)

Feb 27 04
[9:07am] I am not good at updating anymore. A lot is going on, but because of that, I can't find the time to tell yall about it. Is it y'all or ya'll? I'll leave the punctuation out of it. What you really need to know about is the Rufus concert: God, it rocked so much. Minus the car trouble. But I got a lot of pictures and the Behemoth out of it (at least temporarily).. so, good deal. Umm, there's more but I have to read the Aeneid.

Feb 21 04
[12:08am] Three weeks til my birthday. To recap today: an 81 in Polisci and a 90 in Search. Not exactly great, but last Friday wasn't the best either (glares in the direction of the day). After Search, Matt and I walked back to the room in the BEAUTIFUL WEATHER and shouted for joy. The room was lit with sunlight streaming through our stained glass and it was gorgeous. So I sat on my bed and Matt on Carolyn's and we sang until 4:00. Then Carolyn came and we all sang and talked about Rufus plans while Laura watched a movie in French. Eventually we transferred ourselves to Glassell and then Drew and Carolyn and I left to go to Chick Fil-A, which was not appetizing to me, and then the movie "Against the Ropes", which was sort of melodramatic but entertaining, even with the amount of like.. cheap girls in there.. Afterward, some girl asked Drew how his date went and I laughed because she gasped when she saw me. As if it were a date. Whatev. Over people. But after the movie we got ice cream--Love Potion #31, which is DELISH!! And Carolyn was wondering whether it was sherbet or sherbert ("the R is there and it's NOT silent!!").. Well, whatever. I'm really tired. And I'm not sure, but someone might be doing something..hmm.. in the next room. But time for the shower and an attempt to sleep over all the.. *cough*.. noise.

Feb 20 04
[9:25am] Last night, I was putting off my Calculus again because I'm too afraid to pick it back up -- BUT I WILL, PARENTS, I WILL. Carolyn and Drew and I watched some Apprentice and ER.. I tried to write imitation poetry of Christopher Smart.. "For I will consider my Squirrel Rodney". I don't actually have a squirrel, but yall know me--I wouldn't pass up a chance to write a poem about a squirrel. Anyway, it turned out that anything I wrote sounded like crap (Smart already wrote the right words, and any words I replace sound wrong, and if I leave them, it's plagiarism.) My mom sent me a peacoat with a hood, but the buttons are very strange and I can't button things backwards, I can't even get my hands in there. So I'll just cheat and only button one side. But it's very nice, and then two little books that I won't have time to read (since I'll be catching up in Calculus and seeing the other gay man in my life..) But I'm thinking I need to spend some quality time with my digital audio books--my renewal date is the 29th of Feb (leap year) and I still have around 9 hours of book to listen to. And since I can't burn it to a CD, it's not road trip material. sob,sob. So I'm going to go enjoy the last 30 minutes I have of my inter-Calc-Polisci break, and maybe just sit calmly.

Feb 19 04
[12:05am] I've spent a while trying to get my life back in order. Things really knocked me off balance and they're still not back to normal--not at all. A misstep with my heart... I got a D on a Calculus test. How disheartening is that! I work so hard.. blah blah. Tonight, though, putting off looking at my HATED STUPID CALCULUS BOOK.. again, I did lots of laundry and made my bed and Clorox wiped some things down. I washed the few dishes I have, and will go to sleep before 1:00, I hope. (Note: Today I threw a box of cookies on the floor, only to pick them up and eat them anyway. I'm so glad that I have friends who love me despite all these stupid things. Also, I got two new pillows. They are MARVELOUS. THANK YOU MOM I LOVE YOU!!!!)

Feb 12 04
[12:51am] I've picked up this really gross habit of rocking back and forth when I'm sitting on my bed doing homework. Needless to say, THAT'S A LOT OF ROCKING. I'm dizzy. I need to go home this weekend. I can feel the crave rising.

Feb 11 04
[10:34pm] Two notes: 1.) I have iTunes and some troublemaker titled their library as *THE ONLY SONG YOU WILL EVER NEED TO LISTEN TO* and then blocked connections.. which would normally annoy me, but I think tonight it is hilarious. LOL, I say. More importantly is 2.) I saw Judy Shepard tonight. She was a really good speaker. She didn't focus on the very, very sad things for very long.. Only long enough to get all the girls crying, and boys reaching for hands to hold. But after that she switched over to the positive, which was helpful. The entire thing was very good. If you have a chance to ever see her, YOU MUST DO IT.

Feb 9 04
[6:02pm] Yeah right. I got 4 last night and I am dead to the world today. I almost cried in Calculus. Again.

Feb 8 04
[7:30pm] It is at times that I feel a great animosity toward my purple fuzzy pillow. It scratches my face and I do not like it. hatred.

[4:12pm] I was working on an assignment for Spanish. I was done and closed out of Word. The little window popped up, asking "Would you like to save this document before closing?" And my brain's very first reaction was "More than anything, computer dear." That's not normal, is it?

Feb 7 04
[4:41pm] Oh what a night. Carolyn and I saw Monster, which was like.. Emotion Central. Oh, the weeping. How it ensued. After the movie, we came back and sat around for a bit and then Jenn and Elyse came by for a minute. Elyse left, Jenn stayed. Matt came. Laura came. Olivia came. Olivia left. We kinda sat around until 2:30, then Matt and Laura left. Jenn drew on my feet (an illustration of a "time old tale"--Jack and the Beanstalk--I will provide pictures soon) and then went to sleep in Laura's room, since she was being sexiled from her own room. Then sleep. Sleep sleep sleep til 1:30 pm. So it was a good night. Weird dreams though. Oh, by the way, two pictures: one, my mirror reflected the sunlight from Carolyn's window onto my wall, and two, I wrote a poem last Monday.
 

Feb 6 04
[9:26am] Post-calculus, pre-polisci, I would like to comment on how stupid people at Rhodes are. Well, that's too general. How incompetent people at Rhodes are at their specialty areas. More than half the people in my poetry class are declared English majors. One would think that if you're an English major, you should understand the English language. Grammar, for example. Now, if you don't know grammar, how did you get into Rhodes? So here's the situation. We're required to write a poetry in class about the Rat, and it has a certain number of syllables a line, we can't use "to be" verbs, and we can't end a line with a determiner (a, an, the), a conjunction (and, but, or.. etc), or a preposition (of, from, under, above, on.. etc). So this girl asks me, "What part of speech is 'while'?" I say, "A conjunction. Like, 'he cooks while I rest.' Hooks two sentences together, like Conjunction Junction." Someone else counters, "No it's a conTRACtion." I say, "No, contractions are like can+not=can't, and do+not=don't." And the original girl nods slightly and confusedly, saying, "So it's not a 'to be' verb?" I'm thinking, It's hardly even a verb. I understand, like.. "to while away the hours".. but.. it's just stupid. I wish other people here knew even a little bit of grammar.

Feb 5 04
[12:50am] Well, tonight was good. Today wasn't very devastating either. It started with Calc, and I felt pretty clueless but confident (paradoxically) for that; then Polisci, I was just as confused as ever, but I'm far too petrified to ask for clarification on something he's already covered, because guess what? He gets really, really angry when he has to repeat himself (or it seems like he also gets extremely mad whenever Tiane asks a question -- I think he just has anti-Tiane tendencies), so I try to avoid making him angry. Spanish was okay, and Search was a common session. After that, I wrote Laura a "love note" and put it in her bed for her to find after Chorus. Then I did homework until 11:00 when Daniel and Laura came to our room and invited us to Huey's. Tired of Calculus, I acquiesed; tired of Searching for Values, Winny acquiesed as well. And Liz drove us and it was great. I like those people. Now I'm back and I am tired. Thank you. Goodnight.

Feb 4 04
[3:44pm] I might like to add: WOOT. Thank you for your time.