061401
[10:08am] You know what I am doing? I'm trying to listen to Yes's Roundabout. It's our opener for marching band. I think it'll be easier for me to learn the song if I know how it originally went. That makes sense, right? Right. But I don't like the song. Erg.
[9:14am] Today I am 16 years and 3 months old. Um.. I found out yesterday that the Crushlink thing was from Joe, but he sent it to me because he got one from his ex-girlfriend Laura. (Remember, the Mormon? ahahaa) Anyway. So no huge crush there.

061301
[3:20pm] Earlier today, my dad helped me to get my email to work. I found an email in my inbox with the subject line 'Somebody has a crush on you.' and then the first line of the email was: "Guess what, you've got a secret admirer!" This made me happy. So I followed the hyperlink to crushlink where I registered and all that and then there were the steps.
1.) Make a list of all your crushes.
2.) If you guess your secret crush, we'll let you know you have a CrushLink!
3.) Otherwise, all your crushes will get an email saying someone likes them.
I wonder if they understand how horrible this is! I don't even want to do it! I just want to find out who likes me and get it over with. None of this telling-people-that-I-like-them crap. That's too hard. And personal.
[12:06pm] I found out that Michael Jackson was the one who first did "Smooth Criminal." Weird.
[11:03am] I want to be the one, in pictures, that always is the "life of the picture." I have friends who are this, but I'd like to be it, too. I want to be the one who has a signature move, like the peace sign, but nothing as traditional as that. My "pose", I guess you could call it, would be nowhere as vulgar as the one-finger-flick-off or as ludicrous as the Superstar move or as 80s as the lowering-of-the-glasses-and-looking-alluringly-over-the-lenses. Instead, my move would be fresh and young and fun and happy but not crazy or too far past silly. But as of right now, I can't think of any such move to include all these things. And no one is taking my picture.
[9:29am] Yesterday my mom and my brother and I went to the Olive Garden to eat. There was this group of old people behind us and every once in a while I would listen to their conversation (because I'm such an eavesdropper, people.. they were talking loudly, asking for it) and they talked about a wide variety of stuff.
Old person #1: ...Nelly...
Old person #2: I saw that on TV the other night and I thought, "you jerk"..
Old person #3: ..Just because they're black..
Old person #1: It wasn't really him.. it was his sidekicks.
Old person #1: I have Medicare now.
Old person #2: Isn't it great?
Old person #1: Not compared to the stuff they have in Hungary..
Old person #3: They're ARTISTS there.
Old person #1: Bush is going to Europe and the media is such a monster..
Old person #2: They're not even giving him a chance.
[9:01am] I haven't talked to my friend Joe in a long time and since he comes around here sometimes, I'll just write him a short note. How's that for taking-care-of-your-friends? Hmm? Okay.. Start composing.. now!

061201
[4:35pm] It's kinda gross. I haven't taken my shower today yet, but that's because I've been cleaning and now my bathroom rug is in the drier. Why not just take a shower without the bathroom rug? I'm terrified of doing that, because of the whole foot thing. Never you mind, if you don't know. It's okay though. I'll just wait. Or! I could put a towel on the floor. Hey! *genius*
[2:28pm] Just taking a short break from cleaning. I cleaned the kitchen (mopping included.) But it's not my fault that the dumb doggy won't stop trampling over the wet floor. Dumb doggy.
[12:24pm] My right ear is doing funny things. Weird, not humorous. It feels like it's folding inside out or something. *shudder* That's just so very weird! Anyway, lunchtime.

061101
[6:26pm] Before I go to the YMCA and swim, I leave you with a nice little conversation that occurred between Kris and I yesterday. Oh, joy!
Becky: Duh, I knew you didn't get popcorn.
Kris: I know you knew.
Becky: I know you knew I knew.
Becky: I know you knew I had known.
Becky: That's correct-er. :)
Kris: I know you knew that I knew that you had known.
Kris: lol
Becky: I will know that you know that I knew that you had known.
Kris: Of course.
Becky: I will have known that you will know that I know that you knew that I had known.
Becky: They're starting to not look like words anymore.
Kris: I know.
Becky: Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!
[2:17pm] 45 minutes of sun is a good place to start. Yes. Not too much and not too little. Plus, I'm leaving for vacation on Friday so I'll get plenty of sun there. No more white me anymore! I mean, I'll still be Caucasian but I won't be a pale snail. I'll be a tan.. (wo)man. Yeah! I'm a rhyming fool.
[1:36pm] Putting the "kickin tunes" on the mp3 player takes a while. Here's the "kickin tunes" list:

• American Hi-Fi - Flavor of the Week
• Cake - Let Me Go
• Counting Crows - Anna Begins
• Everclear - Sunflowers
• Gorillaz - Clint Eastwood
• Limblifter - Ariel vs. Lotus
• Moulin Rouge - Elephant Love Song Medley, Hindi Sad Diamonds
• Our Lady Peace - 4am, Consequence of Laughing, Starseed, Waited
• Pixies - Evil Hearted You
• Radiohead - Bones
• Reel Big Fish - We Care
• Staind - It's Been Awhile
• Stroke 9 - Bloody Black Backpack
• Wallflowers - Sleepwalker
• Weezer - El Scorcho, I Just Threw Out the Love of My Dreams

060901
[9:12pm] I don't care about anything. I feel pretty darn good, really.
[8:10pm] Just got off the phone with Kris who told me that it's not that Carrie P(!!!!). It's Carrie-from-Festus, who I don't have to know or see her and Will holding hands in the hall, if such a thing ever would happen. Yay. I feel 132% better.
[7:18pm] It's pretty perfect, though. Carrie is #1 in the class (valedictorian-to-be, I swear it) and Will is like #2 (with Richard..) It's just weird. And strangely perfect. But I've got to remember that it's only as complicated (and hurtful) as I make it. This is gonna be tough.
[7:07pm] Carrie is over at Will's house, getting along great, it sounds like. I called him, see, and asked him if he was leaving tomorrow and he said yes he was. And I asked what time and he said 5 am. And I told him about Kris going to the movies with old Ryan H (remember, "love interest" boy?) and she needed a chaperone and asked me. So I didn't really wanna be the "third wheel" so I called up Will to ask if he could provide a ride if I bought the tix.
But we all know that couldn't work out. So we talked about this and that and that he should be a slacker like me and he told me no way, that he was way too excited about his doings this summer: two short stories (one good, one crap), running three miles, camp.. All that stuff. And then I tell him that we should go to the movies some other time when he gets back from camp and he said yeah. And I told him that we could go to the prostitute movie (Moulin Rouge) together and he laughed and said, "Just what I've always wanted." And Will's dad asked him who he was on the phone with and he said it was Becky. And they all laughed and Will's dad said, "Man, Carrie's eyes just got huge..." so I told Will to say hi to Carrie. And then it was over. And he had to get off the phone.
[2:35pm] My brother's confession of coolness: "I'm hip, I can do this *gives the brick-wall movement*, I like Menudo." My brother rocks. He could beat up your brother.
[12:34pm] I totally forgot.
Me: Yeah right, Ty, you wish.
Ty: I wish upon a star.
[12:21pm] Hair convo.
Me: I think I brushed my hair this morning.
Ty: No you didn't!
Me: Oh like you'd know. You don't brush your hair anyway.
Ty: So?

060801
[9:35pm] I got rid of the dumb splash page, which I really liked up until I couldn't see the counter and all the readable stuff on the same page. Which was the whole time. So whatevah.
[9:25pm] My mom and I went to see Shrek. I had already seen it but she wanted me to get out so we went out. Yes, I went to a movie with my mom. If you wanna say anything about that, I'll just hafta whup out tha hevvvvy kung-fu action upon ye. Annnnyway. We needed $$$, so we stopped at the ATM. Graffiti is fun, people. Written on the ATM was, "Amanda is a dike." Amanda is "an embankment of earth and rock built to prevent floods"?

060701
[5:26pm] We also invented new countries because we couldn't say the others: Span and Franch. Yes, I spelled them right.
[5:12pm] Kris and I were discussing how I am reading this book, Personality Unlimited, which is all about manners and how to take care of yourself and stuff. I got it for 25¢ at the library in really good condition (for having been printed in the 40s.) Anyway, I was telling her about the manners sections. About how the man should always be presented to the woman. "Kristen, this is Abraham Lincoln." And then you should say, "A pleasure to meet you." NOT: "Nice to meet ya" or "Glad to know ya." And Kris and I made some other suggestions of what you're not supposed to say.
Me: "Kristen, this is Count Dracula." / Kris: "BOOTYLICIOUS!"
Me: "Kristen, this is Lord George Byron." / Kris: "Poopyhead!"
[5:06pm] "I'm a real boy!" Kris says.
[4:55pm] Kris and I are so stupid on the phone. She was telling me about the day after band camp (very tiring) when she went to go see Urban Legend and she fell asleep in the movie theater. Then at a loud noise, she woke up and screamed. It wasn't a scary part. And I told her that somebody probably thought she was cool and screamed along too, just to fit in. And she said that there was prolly a guy in the audience going, "That girl is cool. Next scary part that comes up, I'm peeing my pants. *pause* Ooh. Warm."
[4:44pm] I'm sorry that my mp3 link for Moulin Rouge - Elephant Love Song Medley was broken before. For some reason, you downloaded Fatboy Slim - Because We Can which is in Moulin Rouge, but not the same song. *tard*

060601
[9:00am] I've already been out of the house! Aren't you proud of me? I went to the YMCA with my mom. I ran for about 15 min and then went to the pool, swam for about 15 or 20 min. WAHH! Yeah!

060501
[9:05pm] I am a she. I realize that I don't put up much in the way of a biography or much info on me. Maybe I should do that. I think I will. I'll do that very soon.
[5:37pm] You will all be very happy to know that I might be getting a life, even if it's just for a little while, this summer. I guess we can call it a life. A babysitting job might constitute as better than sitting around and eating all day. I bet I'll even get paid! (It's raining like the dickens and we're having a flood-let down by the pond. Cool.)
[10:20pm] This is my blue-haired baby, Chuwamba! (Just a joke, save it for later.) Hmm. Weather's okay today. It's like the first day in 100 years that it isn't supposed to rain. Maybe I'll lay out. I doubt it though. It's partly cloudy.
[9:31am] There's a barbecue this weekend, hosted by Colorguard at the Annual [Subdivision] Garage Sale. It's on June 9 (Saturday.) I wonder if I should go. I don't think the colorguard girls really like me. Well, there's Andrea (aka Annie P), and she's nice to everyone. Ronnie is in colorguard now, so... no. I don't think I'll go.

060401
[5:36pm] There was a lot of wind outside, and a cat was sitting in the wind. It looked rather perturbed that it was so windy and for some reason, that made me kind of ticked off at the cat. And then I thought "I hope that cat gets blown away." Blown away wind-wise. Not machine-gun-wise or like wow-that's-some-amazing-blown-away.
[2:42pm] Kris is going with Will and I. Also, some guy named Dan might go. He's a freshman, Will said. I don't know him. Might be interesting to meet someone new.
[2:02pm] Today I go to the ballpark with Will and some other people. Also I talked to Kris today and she asked me if I wanted to go to the movies with her and Ryan (her new "love interest" that she won't admit to him being a "love interest" but the fact that other people have to be there as chaperones gives it away.) I'll have yet to find out what movie we'll see, and then I'll ask if I can go. And if I can go, I'll ask Will to come along, so that I don't feel like the proverbial "third wheel." Yes, I'm going to put all the plot cliché characters in quotation marks. Why? Because it's fun.
[11:55am] I've never really done a layout like this, all big and taking-up-room and stuff like that. I think I like it though.
[9:23am] My mom is so nice. This morning I went out to the kitchen to let Rosco out and there was a piece of newspaper set at my place with a big circle around a part of an article. My mom had put it there and written my name next to the circle. The article is called "Graduating with Honors." If you'd like to read the article in its entirety, go right ahead. Specially formatted so that it doesn't give ya so much crappin code. P.S. My mom circled it from where it says "Ambuehl, in Granite City..." through "interpretation of the policy." I think she did this because I'm in band.
The thing is, I'm not going to be valedictorian. I'll be at least in the top 10%. Maybe top 5%. That'd be great. I just can't get straight As all throughout high school. I've already gotten 7 Bs. But if you think about it, that's very good, seeing that I've only been through 8 quarters. I've gotten straight As once, and one B for every other report card to keep it from being straight As.
My freshman Bs were Physical Science, Drawing, Phys Science, and Govt. My sophomore Bs were Weight Training, Algebra II, and English II. Ah well. What's a girl to do?

060201
[10:02am] Thumb up: It was hilarious, well-shot (film wise), and great music. Thumb sideways: The end. I won't reveal any more of that.

060101
[9:47pm] Just saw Moulin Rouge. I give it one thumb up and one thumb side-ways. Tell you why tomorrow.
[2:22pm] Make a wish. It's 2:22. Also: Will invited me to go to a baseball game with him on the 4th of JUNE. When I tell people "Will invited me to go to a baseball game on the fourth", they say "July what?" Hopeless. Again.
[2:18pm] Did you hear that? Did you? Yes, that's JUNE!! No!! Hopeless. Halfway through this year already. Or nearly, anyway. I feel like I am wasting my summer. I've only had, what, A WEEK of summer. I feel like time is running out for summer. I really don't want to do band because it is unpleasant to learn new music. If that tells you something about me, um, yay for you. I really am freaking out that summer is only available for a limited time! I need to get outdoors, but you know what? The high is in the 60s today! Not warm enough. I want it to be hot hot hot, not rainy. I want to be able to go to the pool.

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